A Woman's Diary

I've Migrated

2009-02-13T15:29:00.005+08:00

Do you know that I’ve migrated?

Yes, ‘A Woman’s Diary’ has migrated to a new domain and you can find my new domain at www.awomandiary.com.

For those of you who are under my blogroll, kindly update my new domain in your own blogroll so that we can always get connected. :)

Last but not least, do spread the word on my ‘migration’ to those who are not aware of my migration. Thank you for the support and I'm looking forward for my gentle readers to visit me at my new domain.

Cheers! ;)

Going Home

2009-01-09T17:33:00.006+08:00

Travel Request – checked.
Travel Advance – checked.
E-ticket purchase – checked.
Accommodation booking – not required.
Advance payment bank-in – checked.
Email auto-responder feature on – checked.
Promotional materials – checked.
Venue rental – to be settle on the day itself.
Updating blog – in the progress (im doing it while you are reading this what). ;p

Marudi, here I come!

Yes, I’m on an official trip back to my sleepy hometown. What a wonderful way to start my official traveling trip for the year 2009.

As usual, I can’t wait to look forward for the exquisite and delicious elbow-licking-good, Marudi Fried Kuey Tiaw (a homemade flat rice noodles). It doesn’t taste the same if you were to have this dish at Deli Papa, Lutong.

I kid you not!

And also I can’t wait to quench my thirst for coffee at Ah Pong kopitiam (Marudi’s favorite kopitiam all time). It is not because of special brew type of coffee or Bario highland tea that are been served but because of the freshly baked buns and breads available there. I definitely will bring some back for friends.

Do you want some? Text me if you do. :)

Going back to Marudi is like going down the memory lane. I’ll be visiting my former school and hope to meet up with my former teachers where all of them are holding senior position in the school.

For all you know, they might have their own blog too. ;p

Till then gentle readers, be patient with my upcoming updates on my trip and wishing you a pleasant week end ahead. As it is always raining lately in the evening, I’m in the mood of heating myself up through the week end.

Party people, do give me a buzz on any plan and I fire you up!

Cheers! :)

Bye-bye 2008, Welcome 2009

2009-01-07T17:28:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year everyone!!..

It is never too late (I guess so ;p) to wishing you guys a very prosperous new year ahead and may all of your dream and resolution comes true or materializes.

I welcome the Year of Ox (for the record, you are reading a blog written by a female ox ;p) with open heart and I hope it’s going to be a wonderful year filled with abundance of wealth, good health and a steady career that can offer plenty of opportunities to grow.

I had listed out (in my head only) on what to achieve throughout the Year of Ox but I don’t see that as my new resolution though, unlike others where a resolution is a must to start the New Year.

Was the year 2008 being good or being cruel to me?
Well, it was pretty tough year for me but I managed to go through all of it in one piece. I take it as one at a time. I guess I can say I’ve survived as I’m the type of person that doesn’t really care or bother on what other perceptions’ (especially the negative one) on me as I have the standing of who are you to judge me if you yourself is not perfect in anything?

However that doesn’t mean I’m the type of being super stubborn for doesn’t accepting any comments or feedback at all. I only accept super constructive comment or feedback as I believe it does change oneself when the one take it seriously.

And as for blogging, I still have the passion in it and will keep on doing it but this time with a bang. If I start to list it down here then some may think it’s part of a resolution (which i’ve mentioned earlier that i’m not a resolution person) so I rather keep everything in mystery (well, I’ve been a mystery ladybird ever since i started to blog and it shall remain as what it is).

Only those with sharp mind and eye would notice the changes and also not forgetting my ‘i-hate-a woman’s diary’ readers will keep on hanging on to their prejudices’ toward me. But with 3 years of going through good and bad experiences in the blogsphere, I believe I can handle it so just bring it on readers.

Merry Christmas and Happy 2009

2008-12-25T09:00:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone,

Wishing you, your family, your beloved ones of all are having a great Christmas and all the best for year 2009.

See you again next year.

Love,

LadyBird®

Last Night

2008-12-24T14:45:00.003+08:00

Last night, I slept at the living room again (I’ve been sleeping at the living room for a week now) with the Christmas tree blinking by my side. It never fail to disappoint me. I just can’t help it for not enjoying the coziness moment and I slept soundlessly throughout the night while listening to Kitaro musics from my mp4 player.

Life is great!

Last night, I received a text message from a dear friend whom I knew virtually at first and now became a friend in real. It was a season greetings text message sent all the way from New Zealand. Thank you Kate and I hope you did received my replied text message to you yesterday.

I’m so happy!

Last night, I received a text message from a blogger, a colleague and also a dear friend of mine on my ‘tidak-menjadi-christmas-gift-surprise’ to remind me on the delivery date for my Christmas gift. He is celebrating his Christmas in Kuching this year.

I had butterflies on my tummy!

Last night, I had pre-christmas dinner with my brother and his wife. We had great time chit chatting and he shares few of his offshore colleagues’ jokes and stories. One of it which I find very hilarious when a senior crew member (has been in the offshore field for 18 years) went and grabbed the microphone during one of the briefing session and makes everyone there laughed. He says “Saya mau pulang ini. Saya punya ‘lan-chaw’ sudah ‘nge’!!. And the only reason that makes him saying that is simply because he couldn’t stay any longer as it has been 5 weeks he has not gone back to see his family due to mis-arrangement by his supervisor.

I laughed with tears!

Last night, after dinner I went for window shopping and I end up buying 2 pairs of 5inches of wedges shoes for just RM50. I’ve been longing for the 5inches wedges and last night my dream comes true. When asked the lady shop owner on the cheap sale, she told me she has to close down her business as the shop rental is too high where she’s paying RM2,500 per month. She sometime wonder how the other shops still can run their business where they are paying RM4,000 per month (rental price is vary depending on the location). And where the hell is this place? The lady shop owner is operating the small kiosk size of shop at Emart.

I was shocked!!

Last night, I received a call. A call that I’ve been waiting from Singapore. A call that said he’ll be back for Christmas and I just can’t wait. We couldn’t come to an agreement whether to celebrate Christmas together this year due to his tight schedules.

Yes, I’m damn happy as I’ll be celebrating Christmas with my man.

Happy Christmas Eve everyone.

S3>< Scandalism

2008-12-23T13:54:00.007+08:00

A scandal is a widely publicized incident that involves allegations of wrongdoing, disgrace, or moral outrage. A scandal may be based on reality, the product of false allegations or a mixture of both.

Having sex is a human sexual behavior or different human sexual practices encompass a wide range of activities such as strategies to find or attract partners (mating and display behavior), interactions between individuals, physical or emotional intimacy, and sexual contact.

So when sex scandals happens or exist behind your backyard, what does that implicate to you?

Something is not right and the situations have turned the world upside down. Worst still I lost my respect to those who are involved.

OMG!! I can’t believe I blog about it and I just can't believe such thing does happen.

ps - i received a very early un-expected Christmas gift today from my colleague (but this is not the gift that I mentioned yesterday though). it’s a simple, elegant and cool white top that came all the way from Surabaya, Indonesia. no picture of it for now as I’m reserving to wear it on Christmas day itself. terima kasih ibu norisa.

In the Mood for Christmas

2008-12-22T16:00:00.005+08:00

Ever since I decorated my cute ‘petite’ size of Christmas tree beautifully and placed it at the corner of my living room, it has changed my evening routine. Before this, I let the living room lights brightly shine above my head where most of the time I would spend time reading books or watching tv (sometime doing manicure and pedicure).

Now, I just can’t wait to go back home and switch on the blinking Christmas lights that have been placed nicely and neatly around the Christmas tree. To add up the coziness environment, I leave the frosted kitchen light on the whole night.

The feeling is beyond description and one can only tell once you get to experience it yourself. It has left a smiling face on me even when I’m sleeping (ok I exaggerated a bit hehe…).

I’m looking forward for Christmas day itself coz at the same time, I’ll be ‘away’ again until next year. Thus, I can have more space to focus on the upcoming MiriCommunity.net 3rd anniversary party (which is quite messy for now due to work and personal commitments) and also re-prioritize my 2009 plans.

At the mean time, I am feeling pretty anxious and excited as I’ve been pre-informed on my Christmas gift (yes I’m going to have a Christmas gift this year). Initially, it was meant as a surprise gift for me but as the chances of it to reach me before or after Christmas is pretty high so the sender decides to spill the bean to me.

But nevertheless, I’m so looking forward to it and I have no clue of what it’s going to be? My favorite brand of perfume I guess or maybe something better than that?

Uuhhhhh…I can’t wait.

I HATE YOU!!!

2008-12-19T12:50:00.006+08:00

These 3 words can change my life forever.

I promise I'll never take it back.

*crying hysterically*

Deja-Voo or Coincidence

2008-12-18T17:08:00.005+08:00

Sometime I ever wonder whether what I’m experiencing in life, others would too.

Sometime when it happens, it was like a deja-voo kind of experience where the moment you encounter it, you kind of recall back that you have been experiencing it before but you can’t really remember (maybe it was in my dream or something) where and what was the ending of it.

I’ve encountered this trillion times in my life. I guess some more to come. I don’t know whether it’s a good or bad sign but so far I don’t really bother. Only when it struck me, I begin to notice or realize it but then again that’s about it. I’ll just let it be.

Like few occasions that has happened to me.

I’ve known Sebastian for quite sometime now, I guess few years already. We get to know each other through Friendster (only those who are in my Friendster contact list would know how Sebastian looks like). Last night, he texted me and updating me on his first week of aviation training (it has been his dream to be a pilot) and how he is so going to miss home so bad this coming Christmas as he couldn’t make it home this year due to the training session.

The weird thing here is when I read his first text to me, I thought I’ve seen and read it before but I just couldn’t recall when, where and from whom. While replying his text, I can imagining him in a cadet pilot uniform (whereas at that time, I haven’t got the news yet that he has enrolled in an aviation school) and to my surprise, he broke the good news to me that he is now actually undergoing the dream training of his life at Melaka.

And today when I update my Friendster profile, I was shocked to see his latest picture in the same cadet pilot uniform that has been visualized in my mind.

Weird or coincidence?

I’ve known Willy through Friendster too. We get to know each other well as we share the same interest and passion in photography. Little did I know that he had feelings for me until, he admitted it openly upon finding out that I’m dating with someone. Although I’ve turned him down, we’re still keeping in touch for friendship sake.

The weird thing is when he expressed his feelings to me at Al-Fresco (before the newly refurbished of Al-Fresco), I kind of have seen the clothes that he wore (I never seen him in that shirt before that until that day), the way he sat and talked, the table where we sat, the food we ordered somewhere before but I just couldn’t re-call it back then. It was kind of spur of the moment thingy.

Weird or coincidence? I really don’t know.

There is also this moment where I’ve seen this specific symbol which partially shown as an alphabet and symbol in my dream (happen couple of times and I couldn’t figure out what sort of ancient symbol that was) until I received my ‘baby’. It was the symbol of the Sony Alpha Camera.

Kind of weird, right? Have you ever experiencing something like this before?

On second thought, maybe I day dream too much. ;p

ps - those occasions are based from true stories, ok. :)

I didn't know this until today

2008-12-17T12:48:00.007+08:00

Of all this while, it was never in my imagination and never had I thought of it too.

I’ve got my ‘D’ class driving license after going through only 2 weeks of driving training (only on half day of Saturday and Sunday so practically only been on training for four times which mostly covered on different type of vehicle parkings) with my car instructor (William Yong Driving School).

The driving training was just to get myself familiar with what to expect on the actual test day as before that I’ve been ‘curi curi’ driving my parent car after I got my ‘B2’ driving license.

Those were the days and I still remembered the experiences clearly.

Years passed by and each time I wanted to re-fill my car petrol, I would either stick my head out from the car window or sometimes to see from the side mirror on which side is my car gas filler cap. But after doing it for awhile, you tend to memorize and remember the location of your gas filler cap each time you wanted to refill your car petrol.

Now this is something not been taught in the driving school.

Today, I finally find out the secret to this problem. The answer lies on the car gas gauge where there is a small icon of a gas pump on it.

If the handle of the gas pump extent out to the left then your car tank is on the left side.
If the handle of the gas pump extent out to the right then your car tank is on the right side.
It is that simple.

So to those who aren’t aware of this, do take note. You don’t need to strain your neck by checking out the location of your car tank each time you wanted to pump petrol.

Spread the words. Share the world best kept auto secret.

Not In The Mood

2008-12-16T13:07:00.002+08:00

Yes the title says it all.

I’m not in the mood of focusing on my upcoming Kuching, Bintulu & Sibu trips.
I’m not in the mood on finalizing the upcoming MiriCommunity.net forum anniversary event.
I’m not in the mood in doing my daily routine in the office.
I’m not in the mood of doing the house chores either.
Practically, I’m not in the mood for everything.

I hate it when this happen. It always happens during that period of time.
Something that a woman has to endure on a monthly basis.

*sigh*

Fantastic Four Tag

2008-12-12T15:46:00.006+08:00

It has been awhile I’ve not done any tag. That’s because I only do it like once in a blue moon or sometimes depend on my mood swing.

I bumped into NightWing’s blog on this tag and here’s the rule;
Click copy/paste, type in your answers and tag four people in your lists!. Don’t forget to change my answers to the questions with that of yours.

4 places I go over and over:
- ‘The Canopy’ located at my office’s genset room (i need O2 bah)
- MiriCommunity.net forum website (i’m the moderator what)
- Office (i’m working what)
- Washroom (everybody need to pee what)

4 people who email me regularly:
- My official ‘Enquiries’ mailing list (because that’s one of my job)
- Blog readers (because they love and hate me)
- Intel engineer (to update myself in the ICT field)
- Friends (to keep me in the loop of spam, porno, and chain email distribution list)

4 of my favorite places to eat:
- Ipoh Kopitiam (because of the white coffee & free wifi)
- Siamese Secret (because of the pizza)
- Kedai Kopi Nyamai (because of the nasi lalapan & closer to my crib)
- Ming’s Café (because of the roti nan & ice blended calamansi juice)

4 places you'd rather be:
- Home (nothing better than your own home sweet home)
- Israel (to visit and study the Jewish community)
- Egypt (to pose behind the pyramids and camel riding)
- New Zealand (to cherish life after retirement)

4 TV shows I could watch over and over:
- All of the CSIs and watch it again during CSI Sunday Supreme.
- Asia Food Channels
- Oprah Winfrey Show
- E-News Reality Show

Feel free to do it and don’t forget to link it back to me.

Happy Weekend peeps. :)

Rainy Thursday

2008-12-11T16:40:00.008+08:00

This morning, it was bright and sunny day then later toward noon, it was pouring heavily. I don't like raining day (although others at any part of this world is hoping and praying for it) especially when I really needed someone to be by my side, here, right now.

I miss my man, badly.

This morning, we chatted on the phone then later toward noon, the conversation stopped. He has to go for a surgery, a minor laser surgery. I don't agree with the surgery decision especially when I can't be there by his side, here, right now.

I wish he is just doing fine by now, really.

Get well soon darling coz we have a lot of adventures waiting ahead of us.

Wednesday Rambling Thoughts

2008-12-10T15:43:00.014+08:00

After being missing for awhile, today I’m back although I’m down with bad flu. Bad flu in my kind of dictionary is that I had to breathe through my mouth instead of my nose. Nevertheless, it doesn’t stop me from blogging because my hands are perfectly well and fit to type unlike my lucky charm nose (as it has a mole at the tip of my nose and its consider a lucky charm to me – a remark made by an old man upon studying my face ‘topography’) who is not feeling well.

# you saw my lucky charm mole on my nose? ;p

The only reason why I don’t blog during my ‘M.I.A’ is I don’t have a laptop to bitching around about my life (gonna have one soon though lalalala…) plus the internet connection at my area is freaking sucks.

While I was ‘away’, apart from doing some spring cleaning in the house, I read plenty of motivational books and one of it is entitled ‘Life is a Series of Presentation’ by Tony Jeary. The book was given to me by my man and I’m glad to have it as it had really motivated me spiritually, mentally and physically.

# strongly recommend for the motivational seeker

Anyway, there are few more books to read and I’ll reserve that when I’m ‘away’ again. The next book that I’m eyeing on now is ‘The Truth about Cheating’ by M.Gary Neuman. This book is Oprah's recommended book and I yet to check whether this book is available at Belle Bookshop. Anyone see this book on sale there before?

# i want this - a hint to anyone for my x-mas gift ;)

On the other hand, I received more of my recent annual photos via email and I like these specific taken photos and I hope my ‘partner-in-crime’ doesn’t scream out loud upon seeing these. Finger crossed.

That night, he’s one the lucky winner of my annual dinner during the lucky draw session and he brought back a slim Nokia camera handphone (don’t ask me which model coz I’m sucks in remembering handphone gadget but I dream to have a Blackberry). I guess he took away my lucky charm after taking pictures with me. ;p

I was pretty surprised too (as I was ‘away’) to find out on the voting session organized by MirCommunity.net forum website on the ‘Most Popular Blogger of the Year’ category. If it wasn’t a buzz from a forum friend on this, I wouldn’t even know.

# you have to open wide your eye to see the current result ;p

I was smiling upon seeing the result so far and reading through the response/feedback from the forum members just tickled me as I find it very hilarious. Not that I don’t appreciate (i really do though) on the efforts of voting for me by the forum members, just that I’m wondering whether they do vote wisely based on the set criteria, just for the sake of voting coz they liked me or hated me, voted me coz I’m their friend or bla bla bla and the list go on.

Deep inside me, winning the title is considered a bonus and if there’s no smell of victory at the other end, it doesn’t make any difference either as I will still keep on doing what I liked – blogging. By nominating my blog there is good enough to act as a shout-out on my blog existence in the cyber world. Don’t you think so? ;)

Ok enough of my rambling thoughts for today. I hardly can breath through my mouth and it’s really inconvenient as due to the high pressure of gravity, the tendency of my saliva dripping from the side of my mouth is pretty high.

So, I better stop for my own good as seeing me sipping my own saliva would make me look silly. :)

ps – ‘away’ = on leave ;p

Friendster and Annual Dinner

2008-12-03T16:10:00.012+08:00

As usual I always update my friendster profile; just to check on any incoming messages or to follow up with any updates done by my friendster communities. Surprisingly, I received a message from someone that I don’t know and I don’t want to know.

Remember this before?

Today, the sender sent me this message…

“Tau takper”, my heart says but I don’t bother to reply. Why should I anyway? As I said earlier, I can’t be bother by this.

Anyway, this year we were having our annual dinner at the Marina Bay Restaurant and Bar of which one of the best seafood restaurant in Miri. Not to mention the restaurant architecture designs which so far is the one and only with such concepts had really gives you the relaxing mood and atmosphere. What more can I ask when one can await to enjoy the sunset view from the restaurant itself which located near the seaside.

I came early just to watch the sunset at the restaurant corridor. I practically explore the whole restaurant (ground, 1st floor and kitchen area from the glass wall – I’m not ‘sakai’ but being curious) and one can really (I did though) appreciate the environment surrounding you especially when you get to feel and smell the ocean.

Ok enough said on that and I was a bit ‘geram’ on that day too for not able to capture everything I gone through as my ‘baby’ was ‘taken away’ by my man.

*sob sob sob*

So to compensate my disappointment, I joined my colleague, Baby Milo who had earlier ‘charging’ himself at the bar. I dragged along Leslie with me and I drank Vodka Lime and it taste so bloody refreshing. I get tipsy within less than half an hour due to empty stomach and please try it if you are willing to handle the consequences. ;p

As this year is a cocktail style dinner seating, I choose to enjoy my salad (which was personally served by the restaurant general manager) with bunch of crazy friends at the bar. I then proceed with the main courses and the food does meet my expectation especially the mussels. Overall, I give 3 stars out of 5 stars.

Without realizing that time is short, that night I received my 5 years of long service award. If you ask me whether I’ll be here for another 5 years, only time will tell.

With couple rounds of cocktails on that night, things getting better and there’s nothing like it when you are having fun with the right accompany of crazy friends surrounds you.

A Plain De-Motivation

2008-12-02T16:31:00.003+08:00

When I woke up this morning, I noticed my voice has changed; from a soft tone of voice now has turned into a husky tone of voice. Great, I said. I have Tina Turner’s voice now. I can’t wait to show off my new voice tone to my friends.

I usually drink a glass of plain water before I hit the shower (as it helps to stimulate the process of toxic wastes inside my intestines thus helps the smooth flow of ‘berak’ session) my throat hurts. It even hurts when I swallowed my saliva.

Die lah like that, I said thus it has spoilt my mood, my appetite the whole day.

On the other hand, I still can’t work on finalizing my Bintulu trip as I just can’t put my heart into it. It’s a pressure trip for me as the management is expecting to see results. The truth is there’s no result going to happen.

How the hell do you expect to eat an apple if you have not planted the tree?? ‘Stew-pig’, right?

Although the trip expenses (accommodation, food & allowances) is gonna be fully covered, I just find it as a waste of my time and effort. What can I do about it? Saya hanya menurut perintah. :(

I need motivation. I am so so lacking of it right now. I need it fast.

*grab her ‘chung nan hai’ and walk away*

Jesus and Muhammad

2008-12-01T16:00:00.011+08:00

I was told this book is been banned for sale in Malaysia and I have the privilege to read it. It took me 5 days to really ‘absorb’ the contents.

I strongly encouraged those who are still consider themselves ‘lost’ in spiritual world to read this or to those who are doing research on religions, do use this book as one of your reference either to support your thesis or to spread the news that has benefit and enrich you spiritually.

First of all, I would like to introduce the book author that goes by the name of Mark A. Gabriel PhD. You might wonder what makes this author qualified to come out with this book. This is because he had already met (literally) Jesus and Muhammad. The author was born with a muslim name with a PhD in Islamic history and culture, a former lecturer at the most respected, authoritative Islamic university in the world (Al-Azhar University) and below are his academic credentials in Islamic scholarship;
- bachelor’s, master’s and doctorate degrees in Islamic History and Culture from Al-Azhar University, Cairo, Eypt
- graduating 2nd in his class of 6000 students from his bachelor degree. This ranking was based on cumulative scores of oral & written exams given at the end of each school year.
- one of the youngest lecturer ever hired at Al-Azhar University. He started lecturing after he finished his master degree and was working to finish his doctorate.
- traveling lecturer. The university sent him to countries around the Middle East as lecturer in Islamic history.

In addition to his academic training, he had practical experience, serving as imam at a mosque in Cairo suburbs.

After he became a Christian, he pursued Christian educations. His credentials in Christian education include;
- Discipleship Training School with Youth With a Mission in Cape Town, South Africa.
- Master degree in World Religion from Florida Christian University, Orlando, Florida (2001)
- Doctorate degree in Christian Education from Florida Christian University, Orlando, Florida (2002)
- Induction as a fellow in Oxford Society of Scholars, Sept 2003.

I don’t see the book provoke neither does it will change your mind or perception immediately towards Islam and Christian but I see it as an eye opener because it is said both Bible and Quran say the truth will prove itself true (Acts 5:33-40; Surah 2:256).

The book is logically organized to guide the readers through;
Section 1
Where the author shares his background on how he came to see the life of Jesus and Muhammad side by side.

Section 2
Where you’ll get to see what Jesus and Muhammad did with their lives. I get to see amazing parallels such as both men were prophesied over as children, both had cousins who introduced them to the public, both were rejected by their hometown and both were assisted by 12 disciples.

Section 3
Where it focuses on the legacy both men left behind by their teaching and examples.

Section 4
Where it give a summary of important facts about Jesus and Muhammad.

Being a Christian, as I go further exploring my findings in this book, I had some ‘goose bumps’ experience aka shocking discoveries as well.

Finding no. 1
It is said in the Quran where a Muslim is allowed to have 4 wives but Muhammad was an exception. He reported a revelation that defined the women he was permitted to marry in (Surah 33:50, Ali Translation). Muhammad actually had 13 wives and in this book the author reveals his wives names.

Finding no. 2
Muhammad wrote a marriage contract with wife no. 2 – Aisha when she was 6 years old (Aisa was the daughter of one of his most loyal follower – Abu Bakr) and consummated his marriage with her while she was 9 years old and she remained with him for nine years (till his death).

Finding no. 3
When Muhammad died, he left 9 living widows and they were prohibited from remarrying after his death (Surah 33;6,52).

Finding no. 4
In addition to his wives, he had another group of women at his disposal. These are female slaves whom he purchased or acquired as P.O.W. Islamic law permitted Muhammad to use them sexually without being marrying them. Any resulting child would not carry the name of Muhammad or take any inheritance from him. There are 23 female slaves listed by name in Islamic history.

Finding no. 5
Although Abu Talib (Muhammad’s uncle) raised him since young after the death of his mother and grandfather, he never converts to Islam even to his last breath.

Enough said. There are many more of my shocking findings and due to the sensitivity level of it, the findings stops here. To find out more, you can only indulge yourself by reading it yourself.

The author now resides in the States after he blurted out the truth to his father on Christianity. He was fired 5 bullets by his own father and within days, he left Egypt permanently.

And I personally liked the author quote where it says…

…No one should be forced to accept any belief system but everyone should have access to any information they want and the opportunity to make a decision without the fear of what other people might do to them.

ps - now im looking forward to read 2 more books written by the same author entitled "Islam and Terrorism" & "Journey into the Mind of an Islamic Terrorist". i wish the author himself send me these books with his signatures on it. (ya how i wish)

The Charm of 'Pelaris'

2008-11-28T13:24:00.014+08:00

The other day I wanted to blog about it but I was too occupied with something else thus it delay this posting. So, here it goes…

…little that I knew some of my post does attract some of my silent reader to leave comment in my blog (applies to those who dare and those who doesn’t dare, they would just sit back and bitching about it behind my back) and also some of them do condemn or disagree with me on some of the post that I wrote.

Well, that’s just part and partial of a blogger life, I said. :)

Honestly, whatever the comment are; be it positive, encouraging, motivating, inspiring or sarcastically the comments are, I am still ok with it. It is just a comment and it’s up to me to take it seriously or not.

When I give any comments or reviews on anything, I might have given a high expectation to my readers to try or to experience it themselves. Or to certain extend it makes me look like heavily promoting on something (blame that on my review skills).

One of it (the post) is my entry on Nasi Lalapan.

Apparently, one of my silent readers (as what I thought but he/she might know me in person and want to remain anonymous) left a pretty harsh and funny comment in my Nasi Lalapan’s post entry. It says…

… “It was nothing like dat when i ordered nasi lalapan in surabaya yesterday. The sambal was horrible, the fish was not fresh and was too salty. Unlike in other places, there wasnt any beancurd and or 'tempe' served with the dish, so for RM10 per plate of only 4 type of raw vege and a fried fish is darn expensive. maybe its true, some people said you only go there cos dah kena pelaris. Obviously u go all out to promote the place so may be u dah kena also. No offence... Nasi lalapan is better at Damai Setia or Muara. The service is all the same. In any muslim shop, the restaurant staff are always "too timing" so there's no difference in terms of services. As long as the food is good then its ok. Btw. nasi lalapan is cheaper in damai setia. Muara will charge u like its a plate of gold... Bon apetit...”

Just to enlighten to my readers who may not know or understand the meaning of ‘pelaris’. Based on what been told by others who know about ‘pelaris’, it’s a black magic practice and usually ‘pelaris’ come in a form of ‘under-wear’. The spells would put upon the ‘under-wear’ and some says the food operator would hang it under the kitchen hud, some says the ‘under-wear’ will be placed in the soup (which I find quite ridiculous) and some says the ‘under-wear’ would be hang at the entrance of the shop.

The main purpose of this practice is to get their customer to keep on coming back to dine at their place.

I begin to ponder what makes the shop operator to opt for such option? Are they not confident enough on their food and services?

Well, I beg your pardon here before you condemn me for being racism or anti-religion but one obvious thing I do noticed in this matter is that the ‘pelaris’ practice exist mostly among the muslim food operators in Miri (especially those outlets that sells nasi lalapan dish or some might be just rumours to bad mouth the outlet operators). Never had I heard the power of ‘pelaris’ is being practiced by others apart from the mentioned community.

On the funny but realistic side of it, I believe every food operators are also practicing ‘pelaris’. Just that they wear their under-wear inside their pants or skirts and they don’t hang ‘em at the kitchen hud, at the shop entrance or put ‘em on their head while preparing the food.

True or false? It's your call. ;p

And I come to think also that whenever a food outlets makes you wanna go back there to dine again and again, that might be due to the power of ‘pelaris’. Just like some of us craving or dying to go back and dine at KFC, McDonald, Pizza Hut, Fratinni Pizza, SugarBun, San Fransciso Coffee, Secret Recipe, Starbuck and CoffeeBean. But then again, these are franschise outlets and are they practicing ‘pelaris’ too? I thought the ‘pelaris’ is only practiced by the locals?

My answer would be YES simply because the staffs are wearing under-wear, well most of us would wear under-wear on daily basis what. Do you? ;p

The thing here is when you are happy with the food (be it in anything), with the provided services you’ll definitely go back to dine again and again at the place. When you say the foods are tasty, delicious, big portion, cheap, excellent services may not be the same to others as our preferences on things may varies.

What is good to me may not be good to you. The choice is yours.

Happy week end peeps.

ps – as im writing this entry, im wearing an under-wear and rest assured the blog of mine is free from ‘pelaris’, serious.

pss – wonder the ‘pelaris’ practitioners uses what brand and what size of under-wear. wonder they wanna accept g-strings or not as I have plenty used and un-used g-strings. ;p

I Was Told

2008-11-27T12:53:00.004+08:00

When I find myself stuck in traffic, I was told not to be despair. There are people in this world for which driving is an unheard of privilege.

When I have a bad day at work, I was told to think of the man who has been out of work for years.

When I am despair over a relationship gone badly, I was told to think of the person who has never known what it's like to love and be loved in return.

When I you grieve the passing of another weekend, I was told to think of the woman in dire straits, working twelve hours a day, seven days a week to feed her children.

When my car break down, leaving me miles away from assistance, I was told to think of the paraplegic who would love the opportunity to take that walk.

When I notice a new gray hair in the mirror and start complaining about it, I was told to think of the cancer patient in chemo who wishes she had hair to examine.

When I find myself at a loss and pondering what is life all about, asking what is my purpose? I was told to be thankful. There are those who didn't live long enough to get the opportunity.

When I find myself the victim of other people's bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities; remember, I was told things could be worse. I could be one of them!

I was told when life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, do not attempt to resolve it yourself! I was told to put it in the SFGTD (something for God to do) box. All situations will be resolved but in God time and not mine.

Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold onto it by worrying about it. Instead, focus on all the wonderful things that are present in your life now.

If you feel that you are touched by this, do spread the word because you may have touched their life in ways you’ll never know. I did.

Rest in Peace Baby Python

2008-11-26T17:25:00.009+08:00

Remember the baby python that I mentioned in my twitter yesterday?

For snake lover out there, don’t condemn me for this. It wasn’t me who killed it, I was just happening to be there and it was already dead.

Well, almost dead actually. I managed to see how it suffers to its last breath though. It’s really pain to witness such a rare occasion and to find yourself so hopeless for not able to perform 'CPR’ to it, it’s a beyond explanation kind of feelings. I kid you not.

May you rest in peace baby python.

# gotcha!! you can hide but you can't run

# arrgghh...im in terrible pain

# oh please take away this pain of mine

# the baby python look kinda cute though

ps – some says it’s a sign of good luck if snakes enter your house, some says it’s a sign of your ancestor or the dead (dead family member) paying you a visit in a form of a snake, some says it’s a bad sign.

pss – what do I care…it’s a bloody snake for god sake; be it non poisonous or poisonous snake the main thing is that thing is a snake and that freaking me out.

At The Edge of My Own World

2008-11-25T17:37:00.002+08:00

Excuse me and I beg your pardon if I start to sound a little bit freaking weird today.

I’ve been living in a dream. The whole world is a dream-my dream. You are the spectator of your own world of your own self. How beautiful it is living in your world.

I woke up many times and thinking what is life and what I am doing. Work, study, home-maker and back to work the routine go on. Recently, insecurity knocking my dream door and I come to a point where I was sobbing uncontrollable in silence but strangely it felt so relieving and fresh.

I’ve been angry but now I’m not.

I’ve been hoping but now I’ve decided to stop.

I don’t think I’ve changed not even one bit. Some accused me of feeling ashamed of myself; some accused me for attention seeker and many more unpleasant remarks to be heard and to absorb.

But the truth is I just want to be alone. I just want to be leave alone. I just want to go away and think. I want to be distracted like I always have been, because I find my purpose in distraction.

I feel like erasing everything but for this moment, I want to keep it. Because it can bring me back to reality.

My Zodiac says...

2008-11-24T17:38:00.001+08:00

I received this forwarded zodiac of mine and I wanna treasure it here as my guideline throughout the year of 2009. It is said that my zodiac personality would be…

…intelligent and self confident. Patient and methodical, helpful and hardworking. Although I might appear slow and rigid, a kind and active mind is beneath. A natural born under works systematically, I am very responsible for family and believe in authority but sometimes is stubborn and traditional.

My zodiac symbolizes prosperity through fortitude and hard work, very dependable, calm and methodical. A patient and tireless worker, I stick to routine and conventions. Although I am generally fair minded and a good listener, it is difficult to make me change my views as I am very stubborn and often has strong prejudices.

Still because of my steady and trustworthy character, I will still be entrusted with positions of authority and responsibility. I will not short fall where duty calls. As a matter of fact, I should be careful not to get carried away.

I like tradition, appreciation, organization, sobriety and routine.
I dislike gimmicks, parties, gossips, laziness and being teased.

However, in 2009 it is said that it’s a year of offending the Tai Sui thus there are major upheavals. I’m advised to be more vigilant and firm with regards to every undertaking, be more discerning when making friends. I’ll be constantly burdened by minor issues at hand. Evil star surfaces that will cause me to lose great loss of wealth and bloodshed. I am at the pit of luck. Fortunately, there is a lucky star to help me to resolve some of the troubles.

Regardsless of the problems, this appeared to be a relatively better year than previous year. If I walk firmly with the path, creative and resolving star will aid me in my career and work luck.

In my career…
…danger stars loom about causing me hard to breath. Fortunately, lucky star are present to lend support. Gradually develop me fundamentals to progress further at a good pace and all will be well. I need not to place too much spending and more rational saving technique.

In my love…
…neutral romance luck level with no major breakthrough. My shyness, introvert attitude and major mood swings will be detrimental to my relationship with family members, friends and colleagues. I need to have tolerance and control the emotional charges.

In my wealth…
…if I can rationally analyse and make wise decisions in relation to investments, undertakings there will be a good turnout for my wealth luck and there is properties gain too. Proper income luck is stable whereas lottery luck fluctuates greatly. Accumulate my wealth and cannot act as guarantors. Discern carefully as to who are your true aid or place to trust upon.

In my health…
…a year of exceptional need to be caution in every way. Cuts, injuries and accidents happened easily than usual. I need to pray to Tai Sui at the year start. I cannot neglect pains to the head and heart. I need to take more rest and seek appropriate treatment at a timely basis.

p/s – I wonder what is tai sui? Anyone care to tell me?

The Silence Disappointment

2008-11-21T18:12:00.003+08:00

My supervisor is away for a long leave since yesterday and I have to do the supervisor tasks throughout the absence period. Not to mention I too have to be ready to cover my peers tasks as more than half of the team are away for their freaking forced leave.

Ok lah, bring it on baby, I said. Can or cannot do, it’s another issue. The issue that seems to be the issue is not the issue after all. That is if you do it the smart way of course and did I do it the smart way? I think so other wise I wouldn’t have the time to update my blog.

*giggled*

When it come to Friday, everything tend to move fast, fast forward to be exact and as I was writing this, I realized that everybody has left the office. Who cares, I said. That’s even better as the quietness can inspired me. It helps to relax my mind and calm myself thus allow me to be creative in many ways.

One of it is how to encourage more participation in the upcoming MiriCommunity.net 3rd Anniversary celebration as currently I’m working on organizing it. Honestly, the truth is I feel de-motivated, frustrated and sad.

Why?

It is quite frustrating to experiencing the non-supportive responses. At one point, the forum members were so anxious, excited and looking forward to participate, to contribute, to share in any of the activities organized in the forum.

Some even organized their own activities via MiriCommunity.net forum website as their platform; easy and fast access to build a new community out of it. I felt happy for them, really. Happy and glad to see a new community exist from a virtual portal website, had its own mission and goals that eventually can gather themselves in real. Everybody benefit from it be it spiritual or mentally. Amazing right?

Looking at this, the Administrator and the Moderator team decided to organize an event that can gather all of the forum members together in conjunction of the forum website anniversary. So, the team works so hard in planning it and trying our very best to come up with un-forgettable event for all to remember. We worked on the plans, argued about it, meet up with respective people; we even eat and sleep with it just for the sake of delivering the best for not to disappoint the forum members.

Surprisingly, the feedback wasn’t the way we were expecting. Rather than receiving positive feedback, more negative feedback can be seen. It is not encouraging at all, totally a failure for me.

A disaster. :(

I come to ponder what has happen to the supportive, friendly and caring forum community out there?
Are they just faking it in the forum?
Are they doing it just for fun?
Is the team lacking of information to convey on the event?
Don’t they realized it without MiriCommunity.net forum; they wouldn’t get to know each other in real?
Don’t they noticed that they actually share and gain information from MiriCommunity.net forum and benefit from it?
Don’t they even realize that some of them are even earning income from MiriCommunity.net forum?

Gosh…where is the love, people?

Nevertheless, the show still has to go on. I am not quitting. I am not giving up. I believe for whatever happens there is always a reason behind it and that reason is something that I will learn from and I can become a better person.

Move aside negativity.
Bring on the fabulous positive energy.

Happy weekend peeps. :)

Can't Be Bother by This

2008-11-20T16:57:00.010+08:00

At first when it happens, I was stunned for a second then it raised my eye brow. Even after I read the content couple of time, I still can’t understand the message behind it. Worst of all, I don’t even know who is the sender.

So I did some checking on what could be the reason that triggers such action and the only thing I find and saw is my profile shout-out (because my profile is protected upon viewing by new profile). The profile shout-out says…

Does my profile shout-out have caused the sender to send such message to me?
I think so or maybe not.

Does she know what kind of trouble she’s looking for by sending such message to me?
No, I don’t think so cause she doesn’t know what sort of damage I can do to her.

Does she even know the usage of profile protected feature at the first place?
Hell noooo…otherwise she wouldn’t go and apply the protected feature at her own profile instead which really contradict on her standing wanting to make friends based on her written message to me.

Despite all of that, I pity her. I pity for her retarded mindset. So, I wrote back to her…
“im sorry i dont understand you. what's with the fuss here?

when you say if i dont want anybody view my frnster, i better dont join. what do you mean by this? isnt it your frnster profile is also the same as mine which is protected? protected in the sense of only invited profile are allowed to view your profile. so does that mean you also shouldnt join frnster too?

you even said here if wanna ask something do send a message and if wanna make friend ask nicely but what you are doing here is totally opposite. datang datang terus tembak orang.

i believe nobody ever force you to open up a profile in friendster at the first place and if you find friendster is not friendly to your expectation then better delete your profile in friendster abis cerita.

if you are refering to my profile shoutout by sending me this message then you need to grow up. it shows you dont understand my level of english. among all of those who want me to add them as a contact, they ask politely and never even one of my contact send a rude message like you.”

At the end of the day, I can’t be bother by this. I have other better thing to do that can benefit me physically, mentally and financially. Period.

Human being just can't be pleased in any form of way.

Fun Numerology

2008-11-18T14:27:00.015+08:00

"Change is your most outstanding characteristic. You like freedom, variety and travel. Your mind and body are well coordinated and you like to test yourself in exciting situations. People admire your versatility and the cool way you handle dangerous experiences.

Negative traits to watch out for are carelessness and unreliability. There are times when it is necessary to be more stable. In romantic relationships, you attract many people throughout your life because of your magnetic personality. You may find it difficult to settle down with just one person. You are most compatible with those having a 1,4, 6 or 9 personality. When you find the right mate, it is someone who shares your need for adventures.

You might choose a career that allows you to take physical or financial risks or one that requires a great deal of travel. In any kind of work, you can be counted on to handle an emergency well. To succeed, you need to curb some of your impulses to plunge into things and learn to develop more practicality. Because you are bright and adaptable, you can do almost anything well if you want to".

Above are my numerology results which I received via forwarded email. I do not know how the person behind this can came up with such idea. I find it totally briliant. But whatever it is, I kind of like the results upon typing in my name as...

…the results were so freaking true and I’m impressed.

Do you wanna give it a try? Please do…just for fun of it. :)

Email me if you wish to have the file and kindly share your result with me under the comment column ok.

ps – my head feels quite heavy now after filling in my year end appraisal form and at the same time working on the miricommunity.net program, budget & costing list. i definitely need more ‘chung nan hai’ after this.

pss – my year end appraisal is tomorrow and im feeling pretty nervous about it. ;p

Almost Spoilt Monday

2008-11-17T15:22:00.008+08:00

Yesterday, I have another round of meeting on the upcoming MiriCommunity.net annual dinner gathering thingy with Ryabren, Jack, Ryna and FairLady (these are the Administrator of MiriCommunity.net forum website) at Ipoh Kopitiam. With the help of my favorite white coffee and nearly finished two packet of ‘Chung Nan Hai’, we finally come to almost completed program for the event.

We end up being the last group to leave the kopitiam premise last night and soon after I hit the shower, I work on the program again. I was so into it without realizing it was already 2am in the morning. Knowing the fact that I’ll be back to office in few hours time, I hit the sack hoping I can get enough rest.

Eventually, I was wrong.

As soon as I closed my eyes, my mind starts to roam wild uncontrollable. Ideas keep on popping like a herd of sheep’s jumping over a fence non stop. I changed my sleeping position quite number of times, hoping that I would eventually fall asleep but I was wrong again.

Kanasai, I said. So, I woke up and switch on the tv and I end up watching my favourite channel – Asian Food Channel until 6am. Without further ado, I hit the shower and get ready to go to work.

I was excited actually as I have been away from office for a week. :)

As usual, I always parked my car at my favorite spot (under a tree where it will indirectly provide shades and less heat in your car). You can get this spot only if you come early to office otherwise you might end up park your car elsewhere where you need to walk a bit further or you will be sitting in a sauna powered car. ;p

However soon after I reached my workstation, I was devastated. Everything was in a mess. My stationeries are scattered all over the desk even the office official stamp with its stamp pad are being moved from its original position. Documents that are suppose to be file are found everywhere on my desk instead of placing it in the document tray. My table phone was moved from its original position. A partially open A4 paper was even placed on my desk.

Cipetttt, I screamed in silence. I just don’t understand what are in my colleagues’ mind whom I consider as matured grown up adults would do such a mess while I’m away. Totally disrespect act. Kanasai and kanalan man ggrrr...

With that kind of attitude, I end up doing my work with a 360 degree of mood swing.

Luckily a phone call saved my day otherwise I would bring forward my mood swing for the rest of the week. Later this evening, I’ll be meeting up again with Ryabren and Jack at one of Miri’s leading hotel to finalize on the food and beverages menu for the upcoming MiriCommunity.net annual dinner thingy and I hope things will go smoothly.

Finger crossed.

ps – despite of lack of sleep, I still feel fresh. :)

pss – at the time I wrote this post, my mood swing has subside to zero degree already. ;p

Away

2008-11-11T07:51:00.003+08:00

Dear all,

I will not be updating my blog throughout this week as I'm currently meditating for an inner peace in my soul. While waiting for the 'new' me, do feel free to 'flip' through my previous post to accommodate your leisure time.

That's all for now.

So Pretentious

2008-11-07T11:02:00.001+08:00

Obama here. Obama there. The latest and hot ‘pisang goreng’ topic in town. Everybody is talking passionately about him and some even blog about him. It seems that Obama’s ‘virus’ is everywhere or shall I call it as the ‘Obama Epidemic’?

Honestly, I’m sick of it at the same time sad about it.

Why?

Just look at our country politic now. Just take a look at your own backyard. We can’t even try to make changes in our own country and we go ‘gu gu ga ga’ with what’s happening in the USA.

Everything seems to be so pretendious.

Sad.

Empowering Myself

2008-11-06T15:53:00.003+08:00

As much as I tried very hard to deny this feeling of being betrayed by whom I see as friend, I’ve come to a point where now I’m giving in to it.
I admit.
I surrender.
I lose.
Yes, it has eaten me alive and depressed me a lot lately.

But then I realized, in life there are choices. It is you who determine which choices to choose. I can choose to be happy with my choice. I can choose to be sad with my choice.

So I look at myself in the mirror and says…

“I am not my past results. I believe I have all the potential to achieve my entire vision and live my life to the fullest. If others can do it, so can I. It is me who determine my life and not you. So say whatever you want because it doesn’t change anything of what I am now.”

I felt so relief.

And you know what?
The thing that keeps me going is you.

Discontented Leave

2008-11-05T16:05:00.003+08:00

When you get to be a career person and work in an organization, apart from enjoying the salary wages, benefits or privileges’ offered (depending on your job position in the organization) by the employer, the employee is also given leave entitlement.

In my case as confirmed personnel, my annual leave entitlement is 20 days. By the way, it’s not inclusive of public holidays and leave in lieu – LIL (LIL only applicable to my team as at time, we do work during the week end).
So, you can imagine I have such an ‘abundant’ leave to clear.
How about yours?

Anyway, great, I thought. It’s my entitlement and I can do whatever I want with it. And whenever I intend to use it, I’ll just submit my leave application online and waits for its approval.
Everything is done at my finger tip.
Easy.
Simple.

But of course along the way before the leave submission process begin, a thorough planning has to take place such as ensuring there is no clashes in your on-going activities, ensuring there is someone to handle your routine duties while you’re away and also ensuring there is enough quota of man-power in the office while you are away.

Failure to ensure all of the above will effect the approval of your leave application. So when this happens (imagine if you have purchased a great deal of air ticket price from AirAsia), who to blame?
Your boss?
Or yourself?

Thing look very simple but it can be very troublesome and complicated whenever problem arises. Un-necessary problem arises, I should say.

I was by force to take leave of 5.5 days (on top of my approved balance of leave) and even stated on which date to clear the 5.5 days.
I was devastated.
Sad.
Disappointed.

Bull, I said.
How can this happen?
I thought I have the right on my leave entitlement as long as I’ve passed the thorough planning stage.
But why is this happening?
I thought I’m the ‘boss’ of my leave and now my boss is controlling my leave entitlement?? No!! This could not be happening.

So, I did my ‘C.S.I’.

Finally, my investigation comes to an end. The source to all of these un-necessary problem lead to someone lack of planning and it has caused the entire section to re-plan their leave and to the extend of forcing them to clear their leave.

It’s not the boss to be blame.
It’s not the system to be blame either.
Who to blame then?

I just hate it when shit happens. I just want to run somewhere, dig a hole and bury my head in it. I just hope tomorrow will be a better day for me.

What am I going to do during that 5.5 days force leave?

Frustration, Disappointment, Anger, Hatred

2008-11-04T14:40:00.006+08:00

It is quite frustrating knowing the fact that there are procedures to follow and there some idiots like to break it hence it shows no co-operation exists. Despite of formal notification of reminders sent out, the ‘stew-pit’ idiots still tend to break it.

Hence, it becomes a problem for me.
Why?
Simply because I was the coordinator (in other word – I rather call it as the undertaker).

And due to the nature of the position, I am accountable for e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g should there anything goes wrong.

As an obedient and harmless individual (saya yang menurut perintah), it was been highlighted and therefore a solution was given and endorsed by the relevant personnel.

The solution was to have the coordinator to shift the private and confidential materials to a designated safe place where only 2 authorized personnel can have the access to it.

Having the thought that the solution is best and justified for everyone however has hit me hard on the wall and I ended up drown in disappointment, anger, frustration and hatred. It has not been a 24 hours of implementation; the solution has been a failure to me. Period.

A ‘stew-pit’ rule breaker managed to smuggle out the private and confidential material behind my back. The worst thing is, the consent was granted by the other authorized personnel who never bother to involve in coordinating it at the first place. And this authorized personnel is ‘untouchable’.

My heart sink.
I cried in silence.

I just don’t see the point of providing a solution to a problem anymore if it is meant to be that way.

I find myself in-competence, in-efficient, uncreative and not productive.
I’m useless.
I’m hopeless.
I’m helpless.
I’m everything of whatever word that can end with the word ‘less’ for now.

I shared it with peers whom I think can motivate me, regenerate me, and refresh me or whatever that can make me back to the right track, everything seem to come to a conclusion.

A conclusion to do whatever that pleases the other party as by doing so, it gives the impression that you are capable, efficient, competence in short you are freaking performing personnel.

I’ve listened to it attentively and swallowed it hard as everything tastes so damn bitter.

The question whether I’m at the right place is something to ponder now.
Or for as long as it may take.
Only time will tell.

The Betrayal

2008-11-03T12:29:00.004+08:00

You don’t need to be nice to me because I never ask for it at the first place.
It was you who took the initiative to be nice to me.

You don’t need to be courtesies to me because I never ask for it at the first place.
It was you who took the effort to do so.

You don’t need to show your care to me because I never ask for it at the first place.
It was you who show your concern to me.

The thought of all of these never came across my mind until you took away the trust in me.

Hope you are happy now knowing that you’ve hurt my feelings and makes my old scars bleeds again. All the good deeds were fake, isn't it?

Hope karma will get you back; be it now or later. It will eat you up, really.

Thank you so much for this. A painful lesson to learn where you can never trust no one.

Period.

And I get to learnt this from a circle of friend. A close circle of so-called friend.

I will never see you the same again, ever.

Missing Student

2008-10-31T16:26:00.014+08:00

Read here and here.

And last night, it was telecast on air in TV3 Bulletin Utama. Anybody watched it last night?

My curiousity says...out of 7 missing students in Perth, 3 are from Curtin and how about the others? Out of 3 missing Curtin students why only focus on Norzarifah Kamarauzaman?

I begin to ponder the reason behind this (missing-in-action). Is it due to over-stress? Is it due to family issue? Is it due to cultural shock? Hhhmmm...

What ever...

My say is...thank you to the electronic media for putting up a free advertisement on my university.

The Strong Desire

2008-10-30T16:25:00.007+08:00

It has been in my head for quite sometimes already and today I'm swallowing my saliva each time it floats above my head.

I wish I can fly now to the nearest outlet.

And feed myself with unforgettable feast.

A feast of what if you may ask. It's a feast of heavenly fresh donuts.

And what type of donut am I refering to?

It's simply J.Co Donut.

Oh god, my saliva is heavily dripping now...

Just A Dream

2008-10-29T14:06:00.004+08:00

It tickled me upon reading the text message sent by a dear friend of mine who is also my blog silent reader (you think I don’t know kah). It says…

…last night I dreamt of you driving satria neo black colour. Cun betul la your car (which literally means it looks fabulous).

I smiled and giggled after reading it.
I find it funny.
Funny cause instead of me dreaming of it, it’s somebody else who dreamt about it.

You dreamt the wrong ride and it’s not even close to my new ride. But my new ride does look fabulous. And if you are lucky enough, you would bump into me with my ride one of this day.

So do say hi to me next time ok?
And same goes to all of my blog readers out there.

:)

Disturbia

2008-10-28T16:06:00.003+08:00

*yawn*

Despite of consuming 4 cups of coffee from morning till now, I am still feeling sleepy.

*sigh*

I never missed my 8 hours of sleeping beauty (during my young and notorious era, 4 hours of sleep is more than enough though) yet I still yawned. I yawned a lot today. I don’t know why.

The effect had caused me being moody for no reason and short temper too. I find that everything surrounding me is very annoying and irritating including my man.

We end up arguing over a small matter.
I started it actually.
Shame on me.

:(

Having a new hair cut during the week end seems not to work out too. It didn’t cheer me up at all yet the look had sucked up my self esteem to the bottom of my sanity.

I end up cutting my hair in front of the mirror at 5am.

They said I carries very naïve look as compared to my previous hair cut which carries a wild and naughty look. I should be happy or even feeling proud over the compliments given to me but I didn’t. I felt numb.

I hate my new hair cut.

*sigh*

What’s wrong with meeeeeee...? *screaming out loud*

*deep sigh*

It's That Time of Period

2008-10-27T16:17:00.002+08:00

I get hungry pretty easy this few days and only one reason explain to this abnormality – period is around the corner. I wonder how many ladies out there share this abnormality of mine out there?

Anyone?

As I get sick and tired of the campus cafeteria food, I called my colleague and request him for a take-a-away from Annie Little Kitchen (as he was there at the time). To my surprise, my take-a-away (Stew Beef with Rice) lunch which cost me RM9.00 (kanasai kes mau cepat kaya lah tok, sik juak ngenei-nei kaya nya ciss..).

I eventually ate the expensive lunch with anger; only eaten quarter of the portion. I rather spend that RM9.00 at SugarBun, KFC or McDonald next time.

Ggggggrrrr…(geram tahap UltraMan Nexus dah tok)

Despite all of that, I am still hungry.
And when I’m hungry, I tend to feel cold easily.
And when I feel cold, I can’t focus on doing my work.
And when I can’t focus doing my work, I become grumpy.
And when I become grumpy, you’ll definitely not going to like me.
Cause when you don’t like me anymore, you’ll definitely stop reading my blog.

So what the heck are you waiting for now?

Go and do your thing or do whatever that you are doing earlier on before you stumbled to my blog.

Go..shuhh..shuhh...shuhh…

But do come back after my period ends, ok? :)

Weak but Fresh at the same time

2008-10-24T15:59:00.002+08:00

I had stomach upset and now I’m feeling pretty weak.

I’ve visited the ‘bilik termenung’ more than 3 times today. Still counting before it reaches midnight later. ;p

I feel hungry and ‘empty’ at the same time. But what I do like the most despite of the stomach upset is…

…I fart a lot today and it feels so ‘refreshing’.

*runnnnn…..before my man ‘kill’ me for this* ;p

The Third Party

2008-10-23T12:57:00.012+08:00

Everything started ever since you saw us hanging out together the other day. It was just our routine hang out time ever since I dated my man.

Mesmerizing the moment together by holding hands, sitting close to each other, hugging and few perks on each other cheeks in public is nothing new neither does it feel awkward to my man and myself.

I didn’t know you back then until my man told me everything about you.

Seeing us together intimately that day had hurt your feelings tremendously and ever since that day too, you’ve been text-ing and calling my man constantly, aggressively.

When there are few fail attempts to reach my man, you re-strategize your plan by using your friend phone to call him instead. My man fall for it but only to your disappointment and dislikes upon knowing the fact that you were just a friend all this while despite of your drama by getting drunk and crying on the phone like you’re gonna die.

Such a pathetic move, bitch. Really.

Despite all of that, instead of me feeling irritated, it was my man who felt so. In-securities conquered and blinded him as losing me to you is a big loss to him.

Without me in his life is going to be m-e-a-n-i-n-g-l-e-s-s.

Or let me re-phrase it to you in a simple sentence – THERE IS NO SPACE FOR YOU SO GET LOST BITCH!

Enough said.

I pity you instead and it makes me begin to ponder your life as someone mistress for more than a decade that can possibly win a single man heart or a divorced man or even a widower. Till today, you are still attached to the ‘mobile banker’ illegally whom cares and had fulfill all of your needs be it spiritual needs or in material forms.

I guess it might be lonely for you when your ‘mobile banker’ spends his quality time with his family and nothing much you can do about it. You will always be the second priority in his list.

That’s why most of the time you would hang out at the pubs or clubs just to fill in the emptiness in your soul.

Or are you sick and tired of servicing him by spreading your legs to him and took one night stand offers from any perverts came along the way whenever it suit your lust desire?

Or you had enough of obligations by sneaking behind your ‘mobile banker’ legal woman’s back just to spend the time together with her husband just like any other dating couples?

Or now you are trying your luck to fish my man hoping that you will eventually get rid of your 'mobile banker' and start all over again?

Trillion pathetic move there bitch as you are faking it to the public and cheating yourself. It must be very hurt as doing it, right?

You’ve disappointed me bitch.
Because you make the women looks cheap to the men eye.

Wake up, bitch.
Because if you are being loved all this while, your ‘mobile banker’ would have married you by now.

Beware bitch.
Because I have my man all to myself and I mean it.

You are nothing but a piece of shit, materialistic bitch.

So fuck off as LadyBird is not someone you can take for granted.

Secret Mission

2008-10-22T15:51:00.010+08:00

Today, Ryabren rang me up.

Just to remind me on our secret mission meet up with Jack tentatively this coming Sunday. When and where to meet is to be advised as we all are busy during the week days.

Excitement and curiosity is at the corner of my head right now and I can’t wait to see what he has to offer for me.

I’ve been absent from the MiriCommunity.net forum Administrators and Moderators ‘meeting’ for a period of time. And receiving a wake up call from Mr. Administrator himself the last few days is something less expected from me.

The call was to invite me to be involve in a secret mission (for now) but one thing for sure is, it’s gonna make the MiriCommunity.net forum members be VERY VERY HAPPY.

Surprise, surprise, surpriseeee…

Oh boy, I can’t wait for Sunday.

ps: Ryabren & Jack are the Administrators of MiriCommunity.net forum website.

pss: As much as I’m looking forward to this, I just hope it will not clash with my pre-plan matters. Finger crossed here. But then again, I don’t really feel bad about it ( i think lah ;p) should I wouldn’t be there as I was part of the master mind behind it anyway.

You said...

2008-10-21T16:11:00.009+08:00

… you loved me more than anything else in the world.

Hence it explains you would rather choose me than your own family if you are given a choice to make.

You said you are an organized and focus individual.

Hence it explains your commitment, your persistence, and you’re optimistic to spend the entire life with me happily and harmoniously.

You said you want to cherish every single moment with me.

Hence it explains your warm hospitality and showered me with un-conditional love in any forms that goes beyond my imagination and expectation.

I’m the luckiest lady ever, really.

The truth is you’ve hurt the people that you care along the way without realizing it. You’ve been blinded by your own needs.

I felt helpless.

I suffer in silence.

It hurts badly.

I’m in pain. Extremely pain.

If only I could knock down the concrete head of yours…
…you’ve would listen and accept me as what I am.

If only I could replace your eye with my eye...
…you’ve would see what I see in life.

If only I could replace my hand with yours…
…you've would get to feel my hard efforts.

If only…

Wake up my love.

Wake up now as I need your old self badly.

Please wake up...

...before it’s too late.

PreMonition

2008-10-20T09:22:00.004+08:00

In life, there would be a point where you had enough of everything. It is even more frustrating to know all the efforts and scarification put in place are not workable as the whole idea and plan was just to take you for granted.

It hurts to know the truth. :(

“Nobody is willing to take your place neither do they are interested…” – the sarcastic sentence that I will remember for eternity. And hell yeahhh…I hold the grudges due to that too coz it hurts me so much.

I don’t understand why a dead log that can’t even be used to produce paper is better than a bonsai tree that even bears beautiful flowers.

I just don’t understand it.

“We have to mould ourselves according to the situations. If it requires us to be a triangle shape then we have to shape ourselves in order to fit in...” – the sentence of wisdom that I will remember for eternity.

But the truth behind it is actually to accommodate your own dignity and pride.

“Let’s have a heart to heart talk. Are you ready to rock and roll? Are you happy with the new challenges?...” – the most stupid sentence that I will remember for eternity.

It makes me smiles sarcastically and gave you a big slap of wake up call on my 5 years of existence and professionalism that makes you speechless. You weren’t expecting to see that coming from my mouth anyway and you deserve it.

Then you came out with an attempt of getting back your dignity.

“Everything that you contributed is big as you are the back bone of the whole operation. And don’t ever think that you’ve contributed less…” – the most lame ass licking sentence I ever heard that I will remember for eternity from someone that I thought is wiser than me but in actual fact is not.

I’m not blind, I’m not deaf neither do I’m stupid.

I’ve seen and heard shits happen and things are just like time bomb; waiting to explode at the right moment where nobody is prepared for it just like the September 11th.

And when that happens, I’m no longer in the picture as I have my own plans and everything is working according to the plans for now.

Oh yes take this premonition of mine and stick it on your forehead as the game has just started.

The Dream Bouquet

2008-10-17T16:18:00.004+08:00

Nice??

I liked... :)

The Boy & The Mother

2008-10-14T15:21:00.008+08:00

Overheard a conversation between a mother and a 7 year old son.

Mother : Darling when a girl kisses a girl, what do you call them?

Son : Lesbian!

Mother : Woww very good. Now what if a boy kisses a boy, what do you call them?

Son : Gay!!

Mother : So clever. But what do you call this when a boy kisses a girl?

Without any hesitation answering, the boy says…

Son : Gay-Bian!!

I was laughing out loud upon hearing this. It is so hilarious to me from a 7 year old boy and I’m just amazed that kids nowadays can go to this extend too.

I myself would never thought of that answer at the first place.

However, the incident makes me ponder on what could have contributed to this? Is it because due to a spontaneous and naïve answer?

Or is it because kids nowadays are smarter than my generation when I was at this age?

Is it because due to the food intake where kids nowadays mostly ate fast food like burgers, fries & carbonated drinks whereas during my time I only ate sago worm, sambal belacan (shrimp paste) and natural sugar cane drinks?

Or is it due to the child upbringing by their parent on sex education?

I wonder…

Even if the answers are all YES to my curiosity, does it bring any good?

Will it lead them to be a better person or will they be a pervert in the future?

The truth is out there.

The Waiting

2008-10-13T14:07:00.006+08:00

I had migraine attacks throughout the week-end after being exposed to ‘hot’ and ‘cold’ environment. I’ve been in and out under the sun and driving for house hunting for almost 3 hours.

Was the search a success??

Well, I’m not quite sure of that but my man is doing the necessary calling to the developer today. Yes, we did found the dream crib, strategic location it was but the main concern here is how fast we can move in.

I rather leave it to faith. If it was meant for us, we would move in fast or else we have to wait.

And waiting is something that I don’t like to do, I sometime don’t have the patience, it’s like so close yet so freaking far kinda thing.

Speaking of which referring to my new ride.

Yesterday, my man text me on the new ride that he promised me before and he was riding it to deliver it personally to me. My heart was pumping hard; I was so happy and was so excited about it.

Waited and waited and waited…finally after 4 hours of waiting in agony, he text me a bad news.

It was found out the new ride had suspension problem (how could a new ride has such faulty and release for sale) and he returned it to the dealer to get it fixed. But later he changed his mind where he insisted on new ride (free from any faulty otherwise I'll give him black-face throughout the year) as replacement (as there are 3 new rides in the showroom at the time and all are been booked) and that had cost him extra RM250 for paperwork purposes.

So now, I won’t get the golden ride as what I wanted but I’m gonna have a black sexy ride instead. To compensate all of this, the boss himself will ‘hand deliver’ the new ride from Sibu to Miri without any charges within 2 days time.

To make it worst, now I have another migraine attack…arrggghhhhhhhhh…

*sigh* :(

No Regrets

2008-10-09T14:21:00.002+08:00

Text messages coming in my message box, emails entering my mailbox not to mention words been spread around on my recent resignation notice submission as far as to the land of maple trees and I have to admit the concerns, care and love involved which had touches me spiritually, really.

I now know how this kind of people really treasures me as a friend.

I felt really grateful and I don’t really know how to pay it back be it in word or in any material form but I believe in karma.

The truth is I’ve taken back my resignation notice yesterday.

As stupid, selfish or pathetic action it may be to others, it doesn’t bother me at all, really. Neither do I regret submitting it or taking it back.

I felt numb.

It wasn’t because of payment in-securities (like what trigger others to do so in most cases) but it was more on career development.

I choose to change and change it will be.

And still until now, I have no regret of my action.

This is me – the true color of me and a wake-up call to you.

Official Resignation

2008-10-06T15:53:00.005+08:00

Today I’m officially back to work and I’ve also officially tender my resignation notice.

I feel great!

Anybody wants my job, kindly submit your resume.

Better still, you may use my resignation notice as a template for your next resignation notice too. :)

Hibernating for awhile

2008-09-26T13:07:00.002+08:00

My dear readers,

Today, I’m away to the Land Below The Wind to explore the so-called seafood heaven in Malaysia, snorkeling, sunbathing at the islands, camwhoring as much as I can and shop till my man ‘drop’.

I know you all gonna miss me so do bite your finger nails, bite your tongue hard, scream as loud as you can or you may even cried hysterically for me throughout my disappearance in the blogsphere (applicable to LadyBird’s Fan Club only).

I’ll be ‘hibernating’ for long, really.

As Hari Raya Aidilfitri is just round the corner and I wouldn’t be around during that festive occasion, I would like to wish all my Muslim friends a happy and prosperous Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Till then…

…asta la vista baby mmwahhh… :)

Disappointment in Anger

2008-09-25T11:57:00.006+08:00

The finishing line is just a meter away yet you find it so bloody difficult and hard for you to reach it due to extreme exhaustion.

So close yet so far.

That exactly how I felt right now.

Earlier on, in the morning, I had an argument with my man.

I was really angry.

I was really pissed.

I was really disappointed.

And I am still mad.

*deep sigh*

I rather go and burn my lung out now.

Car & Boy?

2008-09-24T13:25:00.008+08:00

Cars, boys, cars, boys…

…these two things cannot be separated. You rarely get to see the girls obsessed with cars, right?

It wouldn’t be complete if they don’t talked or brag about their cars; be it just a toy or a real one. Some even subscribe the ‘toy’ magazines for knowledges or some even upgrade their 'toy' based on what they like to see from it.

Having me in a discussion about cars is more to my general knowledge purposes. A little bit of this, a little bit of that, would be sufficient for me. At least, I will not get cheated easily by any bloodsucker mechanics out there in the future.

The other day, I had a conversation with my man on cars. I was amazed when he was able to tell me the model of any car just by looking at its ‘butt’ or just from the side of the car. Well, I’m not the type that can be impressed easily so I tested his knowledge in terms of varies car model performances, fuel consumption, car engine technologies, bla bla bla and I end up with wide open mouth.

Apparently, he knows more than what I know. I felt so silly and stupid. ;p

My man noticed that on my face and he says…

My Man : Darling, what is your dream car?

Me : I always wanted to get rid of my Kancil and get a MyV.

My Man : If I get a better car than that, will you ride it?

Me : *with big rolling eye* What’s that suppose to mean?

My Man : I can get you one. *smiles*

Me : You are kidding me, right?

My Man : *smiles* I just paid the deposit this afternoon for a ride and it will reach you within a month.

Me : Ya rite, whateverrrr…

Till now, I do not know whether I should be feeling happy or get ready for any disappointment if it was just an empty promise after all.

Not that I don’t trust my man…just that it sound too good too be real here.

But deep down inside me, I’m dyinggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg for a new ride.

*giggles*

A Woman's Diary 3rd Anniversary

2008-09-23T12:01:00.004+08:00

I looked back and saw the foot prints left behind throughout my journey in the blogshpere. I started in September 2005 and now it has been 3 years.

It started out of curiosity upon seeing and reading others blog. It was fun until a dear friend challenges me to write. I did take it up, never look back ever since.

To improve my writing skills was the main objective of blogging back then.

Little that I know, I was exposed to more than that. Among it, I make friends along the way although it may sound skeptical at first that most of my blogger friends are actually my virtual friends whom now I’ve met almost all of them.

But the most beautiful thing is when someone told you that my blog has inspired them to write.

I’m not a motivator (most of the time, I always think that I’m a loser), I’m not someone with a status that you can look up high, I’m not a celebrity neither do I’m a Miss Universe finalist…

…but somehow I had inspired them to write. I’m amazed. I’m touched. I’m glad. I’m proud of myself.

A Woman’s Diary is definitely going to stay for long and I will ensure, in anyway the blog will keep on inspiring those out there.

Thank you guys for the support and happy 3rd anniversary to A Woman’s Diary blog.

Cheers… :)

A Monday Joke

2008-09-22T14:30:00.006+08:00

One day, a man who doesn't feeling quite well went to a private clinic for medical consultation. Upon his arrival, the clinic was quite packed with out-patients and that makes the nurse who are on duty at the registration counter entertained the patients with quite a high tone of voice as it was quite noisy at that time .

Upon registration, the nurse asked the man in a high tone.

Nurse : Nama apa? (Your name please?)

Man : Chern Ta Lek.

Nurse : Nama orang putih ada? (Do you have any English name?)

*the man look on the left and look on the right then whisper softly his name*

Man : Teh Tarik.

Nurse : Apa?!!! (Wwwhat??!!)

*the man get irritated and say out loud his name to the nurse*

Man : TEH TARIK!!!!

Everybody were quiet and everything goes in silence.

p/s - you will smile if you are a chinese reader but if you are not, you don't even find this joke as funny at all.

Contemplating Mind

2008-09-19T11:09:00.002+08:00

I just realized there are no flight services available (as what I've been told so do correct me if im wrong here) from Kota Kinabalu (KK) to Keningau and this has caused me extremely stress.

*nearly fainted*

To get to Keningau from KK requires approximately 2 hours of driving. I have the option either to opt for car rental services or opt for the bus services. I’ve not even come to a decision on this yet then I realized I have over look the accommodation part.

*deep sigh*

I am in the middle of contemplating whether to rent a car or opting for the bus services for a group of people and where would be just nice and offer reasonable price for a place to stay in Keningau for a week.

So my dear readers, do you have any suggestions on both issue – transportation & accommodation?

I would love to hear from you all. :)

p/s : I’m organizing a family trip to Keningau in December for my youngest brother’s engagement reception.

Malaysia Day - 16th Sept

2008-09-16T11:32:00.012+08:00

Malaysia Day is held on September 16 every year to commemorate the establishment of Malaysian federation on the same date in 1963. It marked the joining together of Malaya, North Borneo (now known as Sabah), Sarawak, and Singapore to form Malaysia.

However, less than two years later Singapore seceded from the federation and became an independent republic on 9 August 1965.

The effort for independence was spearheaded by Tunku Abdul Rahman Putra Al-Haj, the first Prime Minister of Malaysia. However, for a number of logistical and administrative reasons, it was decided that the official proclamation of independence would only be made on August 31, 1957, at Stadium Merdeka, in Kuala Lumpur.

The Independence Day celebration is still held on August 31, the original independence date of Malaya. However, this has caused some minor discontent among East Malaysians in particular since it has been argued that celebrating the national day on August 31 is too Malaya-centric.

Malaysia Day is not a public holiday. However, it is coincidental with Birthday of Yang di-Pertua of Sabah, making the day a public holiday in Sabah.

Malaysia Day or Independence Day or whatever it may call…it sounds pleasant to the ear. The truth is…always out there.
Seek and thou shall find.

I am sad to see of what has been going on in Malaysia political matter nowadays and it seem that some of us (the so-called after independence generation) seems to not appreciating the efforts contributed by the so-called before independence generation to break us free from colonization.

# the best way of describing how pissed i am with the 'perintah'

I am a Malaysian and proud of it. (although I feel offended by the statement made by Bukit Bendera UMNO Division Chief Datuk Ahmad Ismail on provoking racism issue).

But with the un-necessary political issues going on right now, it really scares me. It scares me to death actually. I don’t feel safe in my own country. I don’t even know where my standing is for now.

So peeps…wake me up when September ends.

STRESS

2008-09-15T15:25:00.002+08:00

Again! Again! And Again! And Again!!

It’s been months. When will I get over all of this??!!

I’m losing my mind, I’m losing my patience and soon I’ll be losing myself.

It is so frustrating to clear your mind in between.
I need to be strong but I’m feeling weaker each time.

HELLPPPPPPPPPPP MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE..!!

Yes, I do need help but who’s going to help me out there?

What's Been Bugging Me Lately

2008-09-12T15:52:00.010+08:00

It was love at first sight.

I can’t stop myself from not thinking about it lately and it has been in my mind almost all the time. I just can’t get over it.

Damn…

…and what is it been bugging me lately?

A wedding wrist corsage!!

# do you like it?

*giggled*

I know most of my readers had the thoughts or some even speculating that I’m getting married soon. The truth is I’m not. It would so rude of me for being denial about this (if it’s true that I’m getting married) and even if it’s true that one of this day I’m getting married, I would be more than glad to announce it here in my humble blog (I would even go to the extend of having a photo journal blog just for my wedding day, trust me).

*smiles*

And what’s with the wedding wrist corsage then if you may ask, it’s simply because I was given the honor to act as uncertified wedding planner for my third brother who’s going to have his wedding dinner reception in the month of November and my youngest brother’s engagement dinner reception in the month of December.

The best part is, both receptions gonna be held at two separate location and it's really testing my geographical knowledge here.

I bumped into the wrist corsage in the cyberspace and it immediately gave me ideas on what to do for these two big events. Speaking of which also explains why I have bad mood swings lately as I have to juggle between my work and after my work time.

So people, wish me success in making these events happening and merrier for both families and looking forward for your word of encouragements under the Comment column. ;)

LadyBird Prayer

2008-09-10T16:07:00.004+08:00

*kneel down on her knee and say her prayer in silence*

“Dear Lord,
I pray for WISDOM to understand a man, to LOVE and to FORGIVE him, and for patience, for his moods.

Because Lord, if I pray for physically STRENGTH, I'll just beat him to death.

Amen”

LadyBird says – I surely beat my man to death if I were ever to be hurt physically.

LadyBird’s reader says…

p/s - Kindly leave your say under the Comment column, thank you. ;)

Under Angry Mode

2008-09-09T08:12:00.004+08:00

I am so bloody angry and pissed at myself.

And thank you so much for giving me all the un-necessary issues that now it had suffocated me and stresses me up.

Do I deserve this?!!

Is it because of me being selfish here? Is it because I’m being childish? Is it because of me being over persistence? Is it because of me being so bloody stupid? Or is it because of the external forces surrounding causes me fucked up like this?!

I hate it; I really hate it when I’m going through all of this.

The irritating and annoying guts that I had now pretty sure gonna hurt people that I love along the way and yes it does scare me too. But when it controls me, I just can’t help myself from stopping it.

I’m just a little baby girl from within.

*sniff*

As much as I tried to focus on my work to meet the fucking due date, I just can’t really give the best out of me due to this. Everything that I do now is so bloody irritating. And everybody surrounding me now is so bloody annoying.

I tend to hate everybody in any circumstances so go away, don’t even think of coming near me.

Oh boyyy..I tend to be un-predictable sometimes especially when my period is just round the corner. What was in your mind just now? ;p

So close yet so far...

2008-09-04T16:36:00.009+08:00

…that’s the best way to describe on my kind of situation right now.

Not to mention my blood pressure has shoot up (i think so, at times i feel giddy for no reason and seeing twinkle twinkle little star during the day), having running nose (now i look like 'rudolf the red nose deer'), stress level about to hit the maximum level (coz i still can control it or else i go beserk), lack of sleep (imagine been sleeping for 4 hours only for almost 2 weeks now) and also plenty of dramas happened in between (only God know how i feel when it happen).

The more I put myself into this, the louder the wedding bells rings.

Yuuhhuuuu...

2008-09-03T08:45:00.006+08:00

Ya ya ya I know…I know very well you’ve been missing me lately especially to my loyal readers and a big thank you to you too for your patience.

Not only that I’ve been busy with my work stuff but also been busy with my personal stuff too.

Sound so cliché’ isn’t it? Oh well, who cares anyway it’s my blog and it’s up to me on what I wanna do with it, right? ;p

To worsen the situation lately, I finally fall sick after 4 years of free from what I called the ‘combo disease’ – fever, flu & coughing. I’m over with the fever which had caused me missed a photo shooting outing with some of the forum members over the week-end. :(

With running nose and coughing, I had a very sexy voice even sexier than Tina Turner’s voice. Don’t believe me? Call me if you don’t. :)

Anyway as I was performing my virtual housekeeping, I bumped into few photos that I took during my university annual dinner.

#2005 Annual Dinner

Venue: Marriot Spa & Resort

Theme : Retro

#2006 Annual Dinner

Venue : EastWood Valley Golf & Country Club

Theme : Be Yourself

#2007 Annual Dinner

Venue : Imperial Hotel

Theme : International Night

The photos brings back a lot of memories and I’m sure gonna miss it so much next year.

*sob sob sob*

I wish I can share with you the memories I had here but I’m sorry I can’t, I’m too emotional now to write something...

Tell Me...

2008-08-28T13:23:00.003+08:00

...what does that implicate to you my dear gentle reader?

Nervous

2008-08-27T14:31:00.004+08:00

I can’t focus on anything that I do lately…

…after I was told that I’ll be meeting the parent this week end.

Gosh I’m so nervous…

…and I just hope I don't pee on my pant throughout the session.

Please pleaseee pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee...God gives me the strength to over-come this.

Farewell to Past, Welcome to Future

2008-08-25T14:40:00.003+08:00

So much has happened this month. I received un-expected surprises from my man (more to come he said), my career is progressing well but the thing that really hit me the most is when I received a sad news.

I was informed by my mom via the phone that my popo (grandmother; my dad’s mom) has ‘left’ the family for eternity.

I was shocked.

I was speechless.

After awhile in silence (I do not remember for how long), I pulled myself together and told to myself that I have to be mentally strong so I called my man. It was just a short sentence that describes what has happened and shortly after, I broke down in tears.

I wasn’t mentally strong after all. I wasn’t ready for this at all.

With the advice and moral support from my man, I did whatever those are necessary to get out from the office and back to my home to pack my stuff. Everything happened so fast and the next thing I know, I was driving on the highway from Miri to Kuching non-stop (15 hours of driving).

OK, I exaggerated a little on the non-stop thingy, I did stop at few rest points along the trip though ;p. I couldn’t get any available flight seats on that day as it was the peak period (school holidays) so my family decided to drive instead (we drove 2 cars).

It is quite emotional for me once I reached my uncle’s house (my uncle has been dedicated his life to take care of my late popo all this while and that’s one of the reason why he is still single man and he’s already in his 40s) to see few familiar family member faces and other un-familiar faces (which I believe are also family relatives that I barely know) crying, weeping near my late popo’s coffin.

Everybody was sad. Everybody was down.

I walked slowly toward my popo’s coffin and there she was with her eyes closed and smiling at me. She wore a beautiful blue Chinese cheongsam blouse and spiritually I know she had ‘left’ us peacefully.

I touched her face for the last time (or else I would give her a hug each time I visited her) and say a prayer for her.

Surprisingly, I didn’t cry.

My late popo laid to rest next to her beloved husband (my late grandfather) in one grave (typical conservative Chinese style where husband and wife will be buried under one grave) at Siburan. Finally after 20 years, my late popo joined my kung kung (grandfather) to the other world and we (those who stayed behind) on the other hand will need to move on with our life.

I began to realize how precious life is. One has to appreciate in whatever they are doing in life; be it just a small matter or big matter to others but the bottom line is every move you make does matter.

It is told that my late popo sacrifices her young age by stop schooling, rotating helping her parent to take care of her younger siblings while they are away working and at times she goes to tap rubber and works in a pepper farm to earn extra for the family. There were 5 of them and popo was the eldest.

Life was hard back then.

She tried her very best to ensure all of her siblings getting a proper education and her hard efforts has paid off. Now, all of her siblings are successful and competitive people in entrepreneurship, law, police force and unit trust lines. 2 of her sisters flew all the way from London and Boston (they’re holding PR status) to pay their last respect to her. Cousins that I barely knew flew from Miri, KL, and Singapore and not to mention those who resided in the cat city itself.

And never do I expect that my popo is also related (1st cousin) to the Sabah & Sarawak Head of Justice (now retired).

What a finding after all.

It is sad to say that when it comes to such a sad occasion like this, then only we get to know who is who. And I have to say that it happens in my family. :( Everything reveals when we had a big family gathering with the closest family members at Rock Road Seafood Restaurant, Kuching.

But despite all of these, I’ve told myself that I’m going to make the changes. And to achieve this, I’ve make a big step by ‘migrating’ to the cat city early next year and by God’s will, I’m hoping everything will go accordingly to plan.

One can never expect a blessing in disguise after all.

Don’t you think so? I think so. :)

Rest in Peace PoPo

2008-08-15T10:02:00.003+08:00

Dear gentle readers,

There will be no updates for today till further notice as the blog author is currently away to pay her last respect to her grandmother in the cat city.

Regards,

LadyBird

Distracted for Something

2008-08-14T15:43:00.003+08:00

I’ve tried to stay focus in doing my tasks today and I can only fully focus for at least half an hour. The remaining seconds, minutes and hours, I end up doing nothing.

In other word, it shows I was distracted.

It all started when he hinted me on a pair of platinum white gold rings.

*butterflies on the tummy*

Gosshhhh….eeeeiiiii….ggggrrrrrrrrrr….I so so wanna go ‘die’ now.

You see...i told you I'm distracted.

*smiles to the ear*

The Thoughts Matter

2008-08-13T15:57:00.002+08:00

Last night, my man looked into my eye, holds my hands gently and said “I have something to tell you and please forgive me if it’s going to break your heart”.

*heart pumping fast rapidly*

“I’ve actually had make a flight reservation the other day, I’ve contacted the hotel’s manager for room reservation and I even called the florist shop. The idea was to ring your door bell and hand over a bouquet of flowers to you because I wanted to surprise you although I have high fever at that time. Somehow, unexpected drama happens in the office and I had to cancel the surprise plan for you. I was really disappointed and devastated. I cried.”

*tears accumulating in my eyes*

How could something like this would break my heart, yet knowing this has melt my heart.

Now, it explains why my man sounds so down when I called him during the first day of the recent rainforest world music festival and put the blame on his high fever for being down at that time.

Although the plan doesn’t succeed, the thoughts matter the most.

I love my man.

I really do.

Take Me Away

2008-08-12T15:30:00.009+08:00

It is said to go to an island near Kota Kinabalu, most of the local would recommend Manukan Island. It is also said this island has got the best facilities, one of the best island to enjoy sunlight, beach, water sport and get close to the nature.

# a jetty at manukan island

On the other hand, my Sabahan associates also recommended exploring Mamutik Island. I found out it is one of the island of Tunku Abdul Rahman Park and it is also said to be one of the good spot for diving and swimming.

# a view taken from mamutik island

Now I’m contemplating between Manukan Island or Mamutik Island. Decision, decision, decision…

On the other hand, I was told by my man that he had made a reservation at Mataking Island during our stay in Tawau. I found out the island is in fact two islands connected by a sandbar. How nice and beautiful it will be and I can’t wait…

# mataking islands

…to go for romantic stroll with my man on these islands.

Busy and Excited Simultaneously

2008-08-11T14:56:00.005+08:00

Sorry for the recent Missing.In.Action mode. ;p

I’m not lazy neither do I have lost the interest in blogging.

I’m just being busy lately. Busy with work and busy with personal stuff.

I’ve been thinking lately. A lot actually. But whatever in my mind, in my plans, everything will definitely work out just the way I want it to be.

At the same time, I just couldn’t wait for my get-away-trip. As a matter of fact, it’s only 6 days more to go and I felt like I have waited for 60 years.

That just shows how excited I am to this trip.

Well, who doesn’t if the trip is gonna be your pre-honeymoon trip..

The Confession

2008-08-07T11:32:00.006+08:00

It was a bright sunny day and I can feel the warmth of the sun-ray upon standing at my kitchen window. I thank you God for this day and will keep on thank you HIM be it on sunny day or be it on a rainy day.

Life has been great for me lately.

Looking back at my past, I was once ‘lost’ and almost gives up at one point of my life. I used to blame myself for what had happened and I blamed God for all of my misery.

Nevertheless, God is fair.

Friends, family came forward for moral supports and it has helps me to move on. I begin to see and accepts life in a different view; positive view to be exact. I slowly put myself together and I tend to appreciate what life has to offer for me.

Little that I know, with the circumstances surrounds me I had become a mentally strong person. I had amazed my family and friends without realizing it.

Then you came along…

…the un-expected way. You came with full of surprises, you’ve light up my life, you gave me hope and most of all, you’ve gave me unconditional love that I can never imagine of.

Never would I think that you would get to enter my life through my humble blog. Both of us were barely knowing each other neither do both of us been introduce by someone at that time. You were very optimistic and persistence and I on the other hand were pushing you away as I was afraid of failure.

But now, the love grows bigger and stronger each day.

I would never see life the negative way anymore, ever and that is all because of you.

And to my dear readers, yes I am in love; truly, deeply and madly in love.

As a matter of fact, this is my first public confession and I give the honor to share the good news to my dear gentle readers first before the parent get to know what the plans ahead of us are.

Mystery LadyBird would not be a mystery any longer, everything would be disclosed anytime soon in the future and same goes with Mystery LadyBird’s ‘new resting place’.

Till then, keep on reading.

At least, I know you are supporting me. ;p

Catamenia

2008-08-06T13:57:00.002+08:00

My back hurts and I hardly can walk straight.

I started to have cold sweats in an air-conditioned office and I can’t figure out what would have caused this to me. I started to feel nervous.

After awhile, I started to feel very cold so I put on my pashmina covering my body for a little warmth, at least it helps.

Just as I was about to appreciate the warmth, my tummy hurts. Now, I started to panic. It hurts until I have to rush myself to the toilet.

I pulled down my g-string and sat down on the toilet bowl but I don’t feel like doing any business. To my surprise, I was having my catamenia and that explain why I was acting differently today. :)

It is a sign that I’m not pregnant and it is also a sign that I am fertile enough. For now, I have to constraints myself from taking anything ‘cold’ as it can contribute to extreme abdomen pain and sometimes cramp.

It is also good news for me as I will not be ‘bleeding’ during my upcoming get-away-trip.

For now, I need some rest; physically and mentally rest.

The Visit

2008-08-05T11:30:00.005+08:00

How many of you know what does MQA stand for?

*crickets sound in the air* ;p

If you are in the education line like me, MQA is not a strange word to you; as a matter of fact to certain extends MQA can makes an organization goes nervous, panic or worst still – closure of an educational organization.

If you are totally ‘lost’ on what on earth does MQA stand for, it stands for Malaysian Qualification Agency (MQA).

Now, let me share with you the simplest way of understanding the role of MQA and the implications of the agency in the education line.

MQA is a new entity which merges the National Accreditation Board (LAN) and the Quality Assurance Division, Ministry of Higher Education (QAD) on 21st December 2005. This entity is responsible for quality assurance of higher education for both the public and the private sectors. This new entity, the Malaysian Qualifications Agency (MQA), was established on 1st November 2007 with the coming in force of the Malaysian Qualifications Agency Act 2007. The MQA was officially launched by the Honourable Minister of Higher Education, Dato’ Mustapa Mohamed, on 2nd November 2007.

The main role of the MQA is to implement the Malaysian Qualifications Framework (MQF) as a basis for quality assurance of higher education and as the reference point for the criteria and standards for national qualifications. The MQA is responsible for monitoring and overseeing the quality assurance practices and accreditation of national higher education.

The establishment of the MQA saw LAN dissolved and its personnel absorbed into the MQA.

So, there you go. :)

I hope you are clear enough on this and in line to this matter, from the 5th of August (today) until the 7th of August; my university is undergoing an establishment audit by Ernst & Young. Ernst & Young is officially appointed by the Ministry of Higher Education to perform the auditing. The audit team consists of 3 members who will be onsite throughout the entire periods. Their works will split amongst them and several interviews will be conducted concurrently at separate venues.

And the objective of this auditing is to conduct a data gathering and profiling exercise on all of the IPTS (Institut Pengajian Tinggi Swasta). For your information, IPTS are divided into 5 categories;
- University/University College (university level)
- Open University (university level)
- Branch campus of foreign university (university level)
- Conventional college (non university level)
- Skilled based college (non university level)

Each IPTS will be assessed based on pre-determined criteria where it will cover;
- Management and governance
- Financial sustainability
- Academic quality
- Student welfare

The assessment also has bonus criteria where it covers;
- Internationalization
- Recognition and awards
- Community service
- Infrastructure – disable facilities
- Research & development activities

It has penalty criteria too where it has 3 categories which fall under serious, moderate and low.

The auditing results; whether it’s good, moderate or bad will definitely affect the university ranking by MQA.

And to gather all of the information based on the required criteria, interview sessions with respective department, academic staff, administrative staff and students on individual basis will be conducted randomly. Apart from that, Ernst and Young’s representative will also sit in for one or two lecture session randomly.

So to my dear readers, in the future do not take for granted or simply making your own judgments on any educational organization standard or quality. Do understand that the educational organizations are required to comply to every single strict terms and condition set by the Ministry of Education to ensure the public are benefiting quality educations out of it.

Should you have any bad experiences with any educational organizations, do lodge your feedback the professional way rather than bad mouthing.

I’m not sure whether I will be selected to undergo the interview session (as the staff will be selected randomly by Ernst & Young) but I definitely will share my experience later.

Till then, I better work on my accommodation booking for my upcoming agent workshop next month. ;p

Excited

2008-08-04T14:03:00.004+08:00

One little two little three little fingers,
Four little five little six little fingers,
Seven little eight little nine little fingers,
Tennnnnnnnnnn little fingers I haveeeeee…

And why I am singing this song?

Because I am so excited!

And why am I so excited?

Becauseeeee I'm counting on the days to deliver a baby soon .

Stay tuned. :)

Sometimes…

2008-07-31T11:02:00.005+08:00

…there are times where I find myself so small like a mustard seed. I noticed everything surrounding me is so big, so tall and so high.

Whenever I find myself have to walk that lonesome valley on my own, the people that you know came into your life and they’ll be on the valley's rim, cheering you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley’s end.

Sometimes you would even break the rules and whenever I do that, I see my future is still far away.

I started this adventure called womanhood; I had no idea of the incredible joys or sorrows that lay ahead. Nor did I know how much I need each other. I do realize now that we do need each other every single day to make our life more meaningful.

So, do bear with me here my dear readers especially when my pre-menstrual symptoms’ is just round the corner. I tend to be emo.

p/s – What were you thinking at first? ;p

The ‘Walking’ LadyBird

2008-07-30T10:29:00.005+08:00

Having something physical that represent your nick is something sweet and I couldn’t be more than happy bumping into a ‘walking’ ladybird – a slipper (locally known as selipar jepun).

Whoever can guess exactly the place where I bought this cute slipper, I’ll give him/her a pair of this slipper as a gift (with LadyBird’s signature on it). If that person is from Miri, I’ll personally hand deliver to him/her or else I’ll ‘fly’ the gift to your door without any extra charges.

You want? Start guessingggg… :)

Note: Due to the nature of the gift, do not expect to receive the exact size of your foot. ;p

p/s - This so-called guessing contest is valid until 31st of August 2008.

The most fun Family Day I ever attended

2008-07-29T15:22:00.044+08:00

By looking at the cloudy sky above me, I can predict it will be a long rainy day. It has been raining since last night and as a matter of fact, it is still raining when I woke up from my sleeping beauty. Despite of that situation, I was still excited to look forward for my campus family day.

Under the pouring weather, with the blur vision from my car mirror (I really need to change my car wiper), I drive my car as slow as possible towards EastWood Valley Golf & Country Club. As expected there are only a few of us wandering around at the club main lobby due to the weather and I wonder whether the family day event would be cancel or postpone.

# these badges are only for kids - i have all of it ;p

I joined my colleagues (who had arrived earlier) for breakfast (although breakfast is provided but only after registration and my tummy can’t wait at that time) outside the club restaurant. Sipping my coffee while enjoying polluting the clean air under the cold weather is so damn complete and relaxing. I can’t think of a word to describe my moment of ‘orgasms’ unless you are in the same boat as me. ;p

# at the registration table with Mr. Model & Auntie Rock

Slowly as the rain drizzly drops on the ground, I get to see more and more staff coming with their family. It was such a relief to see them coming as I just can’t imagine if the family day event going to be cancel last minute and I on the other hand will definitely not going to join the event again on another arranged date. I’m a very busy person, remember? ;p

Knowing the fact that I can’t help myself taking pictures, my mission for the whole day was to take good shots of the event. Little that I know, my team captain dislikes the idea so he ‘makes’ me to participate in all of the matches.

You know what?! I have fun all the way and enjoyed it to the bits. :)

I started the day with the boat relay racing where everything was last minute arrangement by my team captain. I was busy taking shots of some on-going matches at the club musical corridor when my hand was grabbed by him and instructed me to standby at the waiting point. I realized I was placed in the second team and my team at that time was leading.

# everybody are adjusting themselves with the paddles

# waiting for my turn

# ready, get set, go!!

# woiiii faster lahh..

# adoiii..my back hurts ;p

The mission of the race was to compete with other team and each team must have 3 different group of the same team member (consist of 4 person-2 ladies 2 men in a team). Each team will need to paddle as fast as they can (from the starting point) and collect designated balloons for their team (which are tied at a bayou) at the middle of the lake. The team has to paddle back to the starting point, passed the collected balloons to the assigned person and the next team will continue the race until it reaches the last team.

My team - Wallaby won this boat relay racing and nothing is sweeter than the memory of rowing the boat under the rain. It was a blast for me, really. :)

# victoryyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!

After the race, I decided to check out on the kids section.

# story telling time

# blowing balloon race

# jump as high as you can # face painting

# i have Wallaby tattoo on my face

# i just can't escape from papparazi - Mr. Fly

# i shall call this as 'sorang auntie yang siok sendiri' ;p

While busy in action, again I was grabbed by my team captain to participate in another match – Cathy the Caterpillar. The mission of the game is to ‘glue’ each other (a team consists of 6 person), moves literally using your hand and at the same time tried not to break the eggs (2 eggs are placed along the way) until you reached the finishing point.

My team – Wallaby (ladies team) lost in this match as most of us end up laughing at each other. ;p

From a distance, I saw something that looks familiar to me but my view were been blocked by group of kids. Out of curiosity I went over and I saw ‘Chickies’!! The children can claim their kids’ fun meal package upon producing the kid meal coupon (which has been distributed to staff member the previous week) to KFS’s staff.

I also managed to get myself being tattooed on my hand and face for that day.

# before

# after

# before

# after - the sporty witch

I wanted to get another tattoo on my leg when my name was called by one of the team member. Again, I was dragged to participate in another match – The Drunken Sailor. The team must consist of 3 ladies and 3 men. Each of the team members must run toward a pvc stick (located at a designated distance) and had to make 10 round of circles. Upon completing the 10 circles, you have to run towards your team mate and give them a ‘high 5’ so that your team mate can repeat the same process until the whole team completed the relay.

I have to say when it comes to my turn; the world was spinning I was running side way towards my team. Soon after you’ve completed the 10 circles, you’ll be totally dis-oriented and once you can focus and start to run, you’ll not realized you’ll be running side-way lol… ;p

# laughing at other team ;p

# making the fun of myself

# the team in action

However, the organizing committee team had to stop all the matches for that day to avoid anymore unforeseen circumstances as one of our colleague passed out during the match. Although I was a little disappointed upon hearing the announcement but soon I was happy again as our lunch was ready at this point.

Because of the food are so damn good, I rather enjoying eating it rather than taking any shots of the food. ;p

After ensuring all of the staff had their meal, we had a simple prize giving ceremony. This year, only the champion of every match will get their prizes unlike previous years where prizes are given away to 1st, 2nd & 3rd winner.

# my champion badge that i will put on throughout 2008

I couldn’t be more than happy when my team – Wallaby was announced as the overall champion. The team received a trophy and a champion badge.

I had such an enjoyed week end despite of the cat and dog weather. The family day event itself says it all where you get to know other staff family member that comes from diversity of culture and races.

# the most sporting Wallaby team mate

One day, I’m sure going to miss these fun moments throughout my services in Curtin.

11th Rainforest World Music Festival – The Finale

2008-07-28T14:02:00.033+08:00

Despite of being exhausted standing (for almost a day in each shift – I think I can beat David Blaine record standing on the pole hehehe...), my adrenalin rush of anxiety, only 4 hours of sleeping beauty each day, I was still in a high spirit to perform and deliver my tasks at my best capability (saya yang menurut perintah bah). ;p

# part of the team member

Again on the 3rd day, I was assigned on night shift but this time my main role is to do patrol and flashing (lucky I didn’t turn out as a flasher) among the crowd. Imagine patrolling the whole area of SCV on a planned timing and at times, you have to ‘squeeze’ yourself among the thick crowd as when it’s approaching midnight; it is really a challenging and interesting experience too.

Not only you would end up having ‘body contact’ with the crowd patrolling but one also get to experience different human smells; some are good and some are really bad. I nearly fainted and vomited going through a ‘pack’ of shirtless ‘ah beng’ due to their strong arm pit odor. Believe me I would rather wear a scented face mask the next time round if I were to involved in this patrolling task in the future. ;p

# can you spot Darren among the crowd? ;p

I’ve also encountered and heard the public and organizers whispered among themselves (which can be heard as you passed by) upon seeing us patrolling and says ‘Here comes the wrist band security, ready to flash your wrist band’. It sounds funny but that is part of our job and that also explains why we were patrolling – to catch those who think they can go for free joyride during RWMF. There are few among thousand of crowd caught on this matter and they are asked to leave the site in a professional manner.

# my 3rd day wrist band

So again, if you wish to attend the next RWMF, do start to save from today to avoid any unforeseen circumstances especially on the ticket. And if you find the ticket is too pricey then don’t waste your time on complaining about it because if you are really a RWMF’s fan, the cost of the ticket is not an issue at all here as for a true fans of RWMF what matter the most here is what the musicians have to offer to you! :)

A usual, the night shift team reached SCV 2 hours before our shift started. This will allow some of us to go for our dinner which is served at SCV and also gave us time to mind our own business like what I liked to do most – taking pictures.

# with 11th RWMF's Chairman-Mr. Benedict Jimbau & SCV's GM-Ms Jane Lian Labang

# with IngHui, Darren & Irene

I was on my way in to SCV’s main entrance when I bumped into Kenny Sia and Su Ann aka PinkPau. They were on their way to refreshing themselves at the beach and stopped by me just for photo taking. ;p

I received a call from Katherine and asked me to join her patrolling at Rumah Bidayuh. Little that I know I bumped into Tony Eusoff; a popular Malaysia actor, a part time model, an architect (before he quit and involved seriously in acting) and most of all, he hails from Sarawak (he’s a Bidayuh not an Eurasian as what many claimed due to his ‘mixed’ look). We had a casual conversation for about half an hour and find him as a humble person (most of Sarawakian is though) and very passionate in what is he doing now – acting and I can say that he tried his very best to have the conversation with me although he lost his voice on that day – pity him (I guess must be lack of water due to excessive intake of alcohol). ;p

He told me that this was his first RWMF as last year although he has booked a hotel room, air tickets and bought the 3 days RWMF’s ticket; he had to cancel it last minute as it was clashed with his shooting schedules. When asked whether he’s going to stay for good in acting and coming back for the next RWMF– he says he will. Well, I wish all the success in your career, Tony. It’s indeed a pleasure and honor to meet you up, close and personal. :)

I’ve also met up with Bongkerz (an engineer by profession and had a critical mind of his own on current political issues which I liked) for the very first time in person (whom I get to know virtually at first) and thank you to Mel for making my dream comes true. Apparently, they have made early arrangement to meet up and I was fortunate to share the moment of meeting for the first time.

# with Man-D, MelB & Bongkerz

# with Bongkerz

Each time we are done with the patrolling, we would base at the main entrance to assist our team mate. Apart from seeing the crowd coming in, Celcom XPac booth is also busy entertaining the crowd with their own performances and one of the interesting performances on that night was fire blowing performance by the dancers. It does scared the hell out of me at first upon seeing them spitting at the fire and you can feel the heat of it from a distance.

Knowing the fact it was the final night of RWMF, I grabbed my digicam and started to capture every single moment I can (but of course with my boss approval and thank you to you boss for being supportive here - i know you are reading this hehehe..). I also find myself intimidated (jealousy in silence bah) by the presence of professional and amateur ‘shooters’ with their high tech of gadgets at the main stage thus left me ‘shy shy cat’ at the side of the stage taking my shots.

# even the camera man want a better view

I pity myself also for not able to experience the ethnic performances throughout the concerts and only God knows the feeling on how I restrain myself for not getting too excited and joined the crowd dancing due to the uniform that I put on. Even by standing in front of the main stage, I can sense the ‘aura’ from the crowd. It’s something beyond description and only you can describe the adrenalin rush of that moment at that time. ;p

# put your hands up in the air peeps

The best part of the finale is when confetti was blown to the air to end the 11th Rainforest World Music Festival soon after the announcement of the 12th Rainforest World Music Festival which will fall on the 10th, 11th & 12th July 2009.

It was such a relief to all of us that everything went smoothly without any casualty damage. I had my own way of fun and I guess it goes the same with you too. The event itself is indeed an eye-opener for me on what a rainforest music festival really meant to be. Of course, there is always loop holes in between (we are not perfect and same goes to the organizer despite of organizing it for the 11th time) but if all of us take matters professionally, I believe thing would eventually resolve accordingly. :)

So to the RWMF’s fan out there, respect yourself first thus you will appreciate more on what a rainforest music festival had to offer to you. It is just not a music festival but it is also represent your cultures to the world. I’m looking forward to see more local music performers to participate in the future because you are the nation music ambassadors and I’m proud of you all – SeniDA, Kan’iD, Akasha and Tuku Kame.

p/s – LadyBird will be attending the 12th RWMF next year (by God’s willing) with a different review from a different point of view. Till then everything will remain as a mystery instead of a secret. :)

Away for AWhile

2008-07-26T08:30:00.000+08:00

Please be informed that the blog author is not able to update her blog today (like I always update my blog during the week end ;p) due to a long-well-plan occasion.

However if you need to keep in touch with her urgently, you may still find her in Miri. Which part of Miri that would be, do scroll down to find out. ;p

11th Rainforest World Music Festival – The Second Day Actions

2008-07-25T10:49:00.038+08:00

On the second day of RWMF, I was on night shift. So, after breakfast Katherine and I hopped into one of the bus shuttle and the exploration of SCV begins. Both of us know that we wouldn’t have the opportunity to do so while we are on duty later.

# my 2nd day wrist band

Honestly, you don’t get to see many crowds during the day time which makes me wonder whether most of the crowd is attending the RWMF just for the drinks, foods, courting girls & boys, family outing, becoming a part time bikini model or becoming partially nude model (especially to those young ’wannabe’ teenagers aduuhhh sakit mataku) or are they really appreciating the different genre of ethnic music from respective countries that were presented throughout the workshop and the concerts??

# with a Korean lady

To my understanding (based on my own observation and my first RWMF experience) the RWMF concept is that it consists of cultural and musical workshop during the day and concert like performances during the night. RWMF is a music festival (the name itself says it all) and I believe it is more than just a music festival; it’s a pure ethnic music with some beats and jazzy fusion that are played by local traditional and international musicians. And with this basis, SCV is chosen as the official venue as the living museum itself fit the purpose.

# the mohawk man

But what disappointed me the most are those who don’t appreciate the M-U-S-I-C. To them, it’s time to party and its PARTY HARD (like tomorrow is ARMAGEDDON). They drink till they ‘drop’, they smoke ‘grass’ (luckily they didn’t turn into a cow), the wannabe model ladies dress up in their best bikini wear (maybe to show off who has the most ‘delicious’ or flat boobs, some even proudly display their ‘map to heaven’-cellulites on their thigh, under their arm and also not forgetting exposing their ‘spare tyres’-buntalan daging) and many more which I personally find in-appropriate with the occasion.

# miniature sape on sale

Not that I’m being conservative here, to the ladies - I don’t give a damn on what and how you wanna dress up during this event but getting yourself drunk, barely stand and walk straight, trying your luck by ‘hitting’ on someone is something I can’t accept as it shows to the male that we female are ‘cheap’. I tend to feel ashamed of my own people as compared to the foreigners whom mostly dressed up in the most humble way of dressing.

# randomly snap ;p

My exploration of half day has spoilt my mood from exploring further so I decided to headed back to Santubong Resort to refreshes myself before I start my night shift duty. Soon after I reached my room, I saw Mariano carrying few plastic bags that content raw chicken heads. It’s the food for the guard dogs. It’s kind of relaxing seeing the dogs eating their food and I won’t miss a thing to capture their moments.

# nyum nyumm nyummyy..im hungry so back off

Although the night shift starts at 6pm, the night shift team performs their duty around 4:30pm. With high spirit and enthusiasms, we begin with our ‘appetizer’ by scanning the crowd with a metal detector device. We surely give you hard time here especially to the guys because they have to take out E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G in their pocket and here we confiscated blades, scissors, swiss knifes and the most shocking one is firecracker-the bomb version.

# take your position pare'

# the crowd at the main entrance during non peak period

# the team in their position

# raise your arm ma'am and let me do the work# what's inside your pocket, lady?

As for the ladies, some dislikes it when we searched inside their bags (including the ‘aqua’ aka woman wannabe). Well, I don’t give a damn on their faces and as a matter of fact, I would even check thoroughly their bags (rasakan lu). Some even sarcastically says “What are you looking for? I don’t bring any explosives”, “This is my 7th time coming to rainforest and never I go through this kind of security check before!.”, “There’s nothing in my bag, only my make-up kits bah.”, “What if my money went missing?”, “Are you done checking?”, “Are you looking for bomb? Do I look like a terrorist to you?” and the list goes on.

# aaww..i see pairs of g-string inside ;p

Though there is notice informing the public (hanged at the main entrance) that no outside food and drink are allowed, you still sees them ‘smuggle’ home-made food, take away food, tit-bits, liquor, beer and some even tried to be smart by re-filling their drinking container/bottles with liquor. And due to that, these ‘un-wanted’ items will be confiscate (for being stubborn and out-smart the security team) or else if they want it back, they can leave it at the ‘left luggage’ counter with a charges of RM5 (hello that is the charges for taking care of your stuff ok).

# confiscated item from food to drinks

And if you plan to attend next year RWMF and been through this security check experience, make sure you come clean. Next time, just bring your wallet and your ku-ku (for guys) or your pet-pet (for ladies) only. If you complaint the food and drinks are pricey then it shows you never been to a RWMF before and if you complaint that it wasn’t mentioned on STB’s website (on the food and drink issue) then lodge the complaint directly to STB instead of us (the security team).

The main thing here is we (the security team) are there for the sake of ensuring everybody is having fun in a peaceful manner. :)

The security check does not only happen at the main entrance but also at the main stage. This is to ensure no bad incident happens among the crazy and wild crowd. There is this incident where a lady tried to pull down her pant (due to ‘too wasted’) in the middle of crowd while dancing in the mud where she had to be ‘catch’ by one of the security team to prevent her from doing more ‘damage’ to herself. The sad thing is I personally know her and the worst thing is, the lady is a mother of 5. :(

# let's party in the mud, peeps

There is also another incident happens at the main stage where a petite size man who is drunk and tried to perform his ‘superman’ act by climbing the barricades in front of the stage then ‘throw’ himself to the air and falls onto the crowd. Looking at such incident it gave no second doubt for the security team to take the necessary action so he was place at a designated ‘jail’ for any in-appropriate acts like this. The best thing is he is not a camera shy and even poses for me. ;p

# wonder who's son is this? ;p

As the night getting ‘younger’, I noticed more and more crowd coming under the cat and dog weather. Like usual with typical Malaysian attitudes, public likes to buy ticket last minutes and some end up frustrated as the tickets were sold out.

# hand-written notice - come on STB, next time get it well printed

I was told more than 9000 tickets were sold that night but the truth is, the physical count would be more than 10,000 people which has not included the media representatives, the police force, the performers, the food vendors, the sponsors and lastly the security team.

# the long queue going out

With all the sweats all over my body while on duty under the hot sun, with all the sarcastic feedbacks thrown at me during the security check process, at times I felt numb on both of my legs for standing too long, you barely have time to ‘release’ yourself at the washroom, everything are un-forgettable experiences and it’s a sweet one to remember too.

How about your 11th RWMF experience??

11th Rainforest World Music Festival – The First Day Action Begins

2008-07-23T08:03:00.037+08:00

# rwmf official logo - courtesy from rwmf official website

What I’m about to share here is my experiences; good and bad throughout the RWMF’s event and hopefully it will benefit my readers directly or in-directly (depending on how you take it) on what’s happening behind the scenes of RWMF from security services point of view (which are partially told only - for security reason).

# on the way to perform our duty

The 11th Rainforest World Music Festival kicks off officially on the 11th July 2008 and it is also a historical moment for me as it was my FIRST time involved in a world prestigious event but also to be part of the team who ensure everybody would have fun throughout the 3 happening day’s event smoothly and peacefully.

# can't help myself for not taking picture with cool background

Now you tell me...how many of us had such opportunity like this in your life? I did!! :)

I was assigned on duty with the day shift team (the team is working on 2 shifts – day and night) and was excited about it as it was my first day at work. After breakfast, the day shift team waited at the hotel’s lobby and when everybody was there, we hop into our bus shuttle and headed to SCV.

# a big reminder/notice to public hanged at the main entrance

We had to collect our wrist band from the ticketing counter as without the wrist band will guarantee us no entry to the RWMF’s site. The wrist band is a water proof item and you have to have it on the whole day as without it, you can’t re-enter SCV. The wrist band had its own security feature as well which cannot be easily tampered.

# my first day wrist band

I hate to be honest here but I find it was kind of surprise to find some last minute preparations and setup by the food vendors or by the main organizer itself - STB. The appointed contractor whom supposed to setup a canopy for our counter is not even done yet. Food vendors and exhibitors staff goes in and out the main entrance without any wrist band on except for the public. The public keep on coming to our counter and asked for the RWMF’s souvenir book which they can redeem upon producing their ticket. Some even come to us and asked for the event program list!

# the team is ready for action at the main entrance

The worst thing is when we guided the public to the respective person or counter (we refer them to others as we weren’t been told about the souvenir book and program list or else we would end up as one stop enquiries counter) for the souvenir book or the program list, the public are told that it was not ready for collection. Come on STB, what’s happening here? You’ve been organizing this event for the 11th time and simple thing like this still not manageable?? There is even no signboard or notice to inform the public on where or when to get their program list or the souvenir book.

# the boss is always around to check on us

Thus it has caused frustration on the public and they burst their anger and frustration to us (the security team) and I on the other hand felt like I had 8 layers of mask applied on my face (not to mention tans of saliva landed on my face from hot tempered public standing in front of me and ‘barking’ at me non-stop) and at the same time had to smile at them just to make them feel like an idiot for not able to control their temper just because of a souvenir book or a program list.

# no outside drink is allowed, ma'am!

# no matter how 'cloth-less' you are, you still have to go through the security check

I begin to wonder whether I’m being paid for all of these un-expected craps but the other side of me says it was just part of the job and I ‘survived’ the ‘ordeal’ for 3 days anyway. ;)

However the hiccup solved towards the evening but still, it has left bad experience to the public.

Throughout the RWMF’s event, lunch and dinner are provided at the site and we need to produce our meal vouchers to the caterer. I noticed that the team ends up having meal together with the performers, media representatives, the police force and STB’s team under one roof. I was lucky to be able to sit next to the 11th RWMF’s chairman himself – Mr. Benedict Jimbau. I took the opportunity to have a casual conversation and find him as a witty person and bubbly person. He even joked with me that he has to put on his make-up first before taking picture with me when I seek for his permission to do so.

# 11th RWMF's chairman - Mr. Benedict Jimbau

This year, Celcom XPax is one the main sponsor and their booth was located right in front of the main entrance. The public were been entertained by series of program prepared by Celcom and the only thing that attract me the most is the contemporary cultural performances.

# the Iban dance performance aka 'ngajat gigit lesung' ;p

# the bidayuh dance performance

# the melanau performance

# another melanau dance performance

# the orang ulu warrior dance performance

But what irritates me is that the public tend to block the entrance passage way going further in to SCV as Celcom booth was located exactly in front of the main entrance. We end up ‘chasing away’ some of the crowd that tend to stand and watch the performances behind the barricades and in return we were given ‘sweet, sour and black’ faces. :(

You get what I mean here, right?

Having being assigned at the main entrance, you’ll get to see many familiar (especially celebrities) and unfamiliar faces among the crowd. Just because I was putting on a uniform, I have to really control myself from getting too excited and taking pictures with those that I know especially when my boss is around monitoring us working. :(

# spotted Jehan Miskin & Tony Eusoff taking pictures with some fans

*Sigh* In this case, professionalism play its role and imagine how ‘suffer’ I was for being a ‘professional’ here? ;p

I greeted Kenny Sia (who happen to be my sister’s friend and it was expected to see him during RWMF) after he went through the security check and told him that I would find him among the crowd for photo taking and he’s fine with it. After a while, I found out it’s going to be impossible for me to find him among the big crowd so I opt for another alternative by calling IngHui to ‘catch’ Kenny for me. I managed to ‘sneak’ among the thick crowd and found Kenny under a bright balloon located not far from the VIP stage dancing happily with IngHui and Irene.

# first shot

# another shot

As night approaching, you’ll get to see more and more crowd entering the RWMF’s site. The situation even become worst when it started to rain hence had caused a long queue at the main entrance. Looking at this situation, I end up assisting the night shift at the main entrance until 10pm although I’m supposed to be on off duty at 6pm. I was soaked wet (my bra was wet and same goes with my g-string) under the cat and dog weather.

# the crowd at the main stage before it become packed like sardines

# another view in front of the vip stage before it get packed

Surprisingly, the rain doesn’t stop the crowd keep on coming.

# the crowd came with umbrellas and rain coats fashion ;p

# long queue at the main entrance

I decided to call it off for the day upon finding everything were under control so the day shift team waited at the designated waiting point for bus shuttle services to bring us back to Santubong Resort. It was so damn refreshing after taking a hot shower once I reached my room. And as I was about to hit the sack, I received a notice that the team is required to attend an emergency post mortem session around 2am at the hotel ballroom where we normally had our supper (supper is provided for us and how good is that!) throughout the 3 days event.

# managed to 'shoot' behind the boss himself ;p

# security post mortem briefing session in progress

With a heavy eye, Katherine and me walked slowly towards the ballroom for the post mortem briefing session but soon feeling so awake upon seeing food served for supper hehehe…

Soon after the briefing session ends, we headed back to our room and at this point, I noticed someone is like eyeing on me (from the corner of my eye) and each time I stared at that person, the person would either look elsewhere or just stared back at me as if I’m the one who do the staring first.

Who is this mysterious person? Check it out in my next post huhuhu… ;p

11th Rainforest World Music Festival – The Site Briefing, First Meet

2008-07-21T15:11:00.022+08:00

I was awakening by the sound of dogs barking outside my hotel room and found out it was 7am in the morning (usually woke up at 5am on daily basis). Knowing the fact that I was on vacation, I tried several times to get back to my sleeping beauty but failed badly. I envy those who can really sleep until noon.

So, I decided to take my refreshing morning shower to start my day.

After I’m done, Katherine (my room-mate) and I went to the resort’s coffeehouse for breakfast. As the team was given meal vouchers the previous day, we have to give away the meal voucher (for every meal – food are provided throughout the rwmf’s event and what more can you ask for) to the hotel staff who patiently standing in front of the coffeehouse entrance to welcome us.

# meals are presented buffet style

It is common to see varieties of food served (from western to eastern) in a hotel’s coffeehouse and due to that I end up having orange juice with toast bread only; I can't make up my mind on what to eat. Deep inside me at that time, I was craving for laksa and kolok mee available somewhere in the cat city as it taste so much tastier and cheaper (like I’m paying for the food here hehe..) than the hotel’s food, really.

# the last breakfast group photo

But nothing beat the disappointment of mine by sipping black coffee and polluting the resort air at the same outside the coffeehouse. It is so stimulating moment and its beyond describable. Later, the MGK9’s boss himself joined me and we discussed about work related stuff before we proceeded to the hotel’s lobby for site briefing.

# our duty roster

At the lobby, I get to meet the other team members from Kuching, Singapore and Philippines whom had landed safely and checked in at the hotel last night. I planned to welcome them at first but due to the delayed flight and it was approaching midnight, I decided to hit the sack and meet up with them the following day. I was told the Philippines team flight was delayed for nearly 3 hours at LCCT KL (or else they can claim the on-time guarantee voucher) and poor Singapore team had to wait for them at the airport as there is only one shuttle bus allocated to shuttle them to Santubong resort.

# sarawak cultural village map

As it was the RWMF’s event, you can just hopped in any of the bus shuttle provided (be it a bus or a van) and it will get you to the Sarawak Cultural Village - SCV (the main venue of RWMF) within 5 minutes from Santubong Resort and the public is charged for RM5 per way.

# rwmf's main stage

As for the volunteer team, we can just hop in for free (provided our name tag is hanged on our neck at all time) in any designated bus shuttle that carries a big sign which shows – FOR PERFORMERS/OFFICAL ONLY. We even have our own isolated bus drop off point to avoid the traffic but most of the time due to conveniences; we prefer to drop off at the SCV’s main entrance.

# briefing along the pathway toward rumah bidayuh

At this point, the Sabah team has landed safely at Kuching International Airport and was on their way to Santubong Resort. We on the other hand were brought for a familiarization tour and briefing session at the RWMF’s site - SCV by MGK9’s boss himself. Everyone were listening attentively to every single details presented by him but at the same time we were also enjoying the beautiful view of SCV.

# briefing in front of the main stage and the vip stage

Once everything is done, I rushed back to Santubong Resort to welcome the Sabah team. I was pretty nervous as it was my first time meeting them in person as I only get to know them virtually (via blog) before hand. I remembered the first thing I asked them was ‘Hi, so which one of you is Mel?’ because all this while I was liaising with Mel from the very beginning. :)

# briefing in front of the main entrance

After getting to know each other briefly, we headed to the coffeehouse for lunch. Once we are done with lunch, I guided them to their room (purposely choose a connecting room for us) and everybody seems to prefer to have enough rest through the day as tomorrow is where all the action wills starts.

# briefing on the flow of the crowd entry

Evening falls slowly and to mark my first meet with my new friends, we had few rounds of pool game (at first I intend to play but seeing Linda plays so much better than me, I back off lol…) later proceed for karaoke session. Honestly, I rather jump up and down making my ‘signature moves’ at the lobby lounge as the karaoke session was dull due the songs selection available are so not my taste. I repeat the song selections are limited but my Sabahan friends are good singers, really.

# picture courtesy from Mel - see how bored i am ;p

We call off the day around 10pm and before I hit the sack, I would hang out at my room’s balcony polluting the air with a cup of coffee.

Want to know what happen on day one of RWMF??

Wait for my next post. :)

11th Rainforest World Music Festival – The Arrival at Santubong Resort

2008-07-19T12:55:00.014+08:00

I get excited as soon as I opened my eye once I get to see some familiar scenery as we passed by Siburan town. My childhood memories crossing the road to my grandfather pepper’s farm located near the world renowned – Jong’s Crocodile Farm flashed in my head and tears begin rolling down my cheeks.

I miss my late grandfather (I called him ‘Ah Kung’) and the memories of him fetching me from kindergarten with his old bicycle, climbing his rambutan and ciku trees at his backyard, went to do my ‘business’ at his favorite toilet located at the backyard (although there is a proper toilet in the house) where the toilet door is made of gunny sacks only, helping him to water his garden from the pond (just because I liked to bath here), plucking spring onions and bean sprouts for sale, learn to make fermented vegetable, went fishing at the streams in his pepper farm and get to experience the whole process of producing good quality pepper.

Speaking of which explains Sarawak is the best pepper producer and had the best pepper quality in the world. :)

As the team approaching the cat city, our bus broke down at 7th Miles due to technical problems and we waited for 2 hours (under the rain) for the bus to be fixed before we continue our journey to Santubong Resort – the team official accommodation venue.

# Gunung Santubong from far

Honestly, this is my first time to Santubong Resort and noticed the hotel lobby is located separately from the hotel rooms. The hotel main lobby is attached to the coffeehouse, the lounge and the ballrooms blocks whereas the hotel rooms are separated at other blocks. I guess this is what they called the chalet concept. The resort swimming pool is located opposite the main lobby.

# Santubong Resort reception area# Santubong beach

Apparently, the Damai Golf & Country Club is located just next to the resort as well.

# the chalet block where i stayed - block 9 - room 9102

We loaded our luggage and checked in to our respective rooms where I shared with 3 others female team member. The room is quite spacey with two queen size bed and same goes with the bathroom too. The bathroom even had dry and wet areas where you can have your shower at a designated corner and it has a bath-tub too located at another designated corner. It has quite wide sink with a big mirror on the wall and this is where I put on my make-up each time after I had my shower.

A round marble table and two wooden chairs placed nicely at the room’s balcony and sitting here while sipping a hot coffee with couple of ciggie sticks is such a relaxing moments. This is also where I had casual conversations with my team members and discussed some related work matters with MGK9’s boss.

# my official tag

At this point, the first batch team is still waiting for the second batch team to join us checking in at the resort as far as from Singapore, Philipines and Sabah.

I was told that the MGK9 team itself had occupied 18 rooms of the chalet and apparently the main organizer teams (Sarawak Tourism Board) inclusive of the committee member and volunteers, the RWMF’s performers, the media team, domestic and international room guests are staying here too.

Santubong Resort has indeed become the official accommodation for the annual RWMF’s event.

Are you still with me here? If yes, stay tuned the next post on next Monday.

At the mean time, I want to enjoy my week-end with my boo. :)

11th Rainforest World Music Festival – The Search, Briefing & Departure

2008-07-18T15:06:00.023+08:00

Everything started when I was offered to be a volunteer in the 11th Rainforest World Music Festival by Mr. Leo – owner of MGK9 a company that provides security guard dog services. Not only security guard dog services are provided but they are also doing dog breeding at NightWatch K9 House.

With their kind of professionalism services available, it gave no second thought of the Sarawak Tourism Board - STB (the main organizer of Rainforest World Music Festival) gave their confident and trust to appoint MGK9 to provide the entire security measurement for the world renowned music festival.

MGK9 has been engaged by STB ever since the 9th Rainforest World Music Festival and also since the 1st Miri International Jazz Festival (as for year 2008 its the 3rd Miri International Jazz Festival).

Knowing the fact that I’ll be working hand in hand with an established security company, deep inside me tells that I have to be committed although I may be just a volunteer and cannot take things for granted just because the owner himself is a dear friend to me.

It became more stressful for me when I was asked to find more volunteers for this event.

That explains why I came up with an idea for the search of the 11th RWMF’s volunteers which at the beginning I was a little skeptical about it. Surprisingly, I have tremendous good responses (via blog, text messages & email) and unfortunately, I have to reject some of those who had signed up as I have hit my targeted number of volunteers based on first come first serve basis.

Perhaps those who can’t signed up, can try your luck again next year because it may be repeated based on the overwhelm responses. :)

The volunteer team (recruited by me) consists of a group of university students, working adults (from different field such as retail, forestry, education, heavy machinery, timber, police force and shipping) and also bloggers. Most of us are from Miri, the rest are from Sabah and due to logistic issues, I updated the Sabahan volunteers via email on the pre-departure briefing session that we had before we go off for the RWMF.

# we had satay session during briefing session

To my findings, MGK9 volunteer team comprises of 4 groups – Miri, Kuching, Singapore & Philipines.

On the 8th of July, exactly 8:45pm the Miri team departed MGK9 command station via air-condition chartered bus under the rain. The bus does not only load with the volunteers and MGK9’s staff but also with 8 big hairy canines.

# auuwww..im camera shy, go away you homo sapiens

Surprisingly, the canines are very well behaved and been enjoying their ‘sleeping beauty’ all the way to Kuching. The canines are even left alone inside the bus while we were enjoying our coffee and ‘releasing’ ourselves at each stop point.

# i need to release myself too.. ;p

Although the journey takes approximately 15 hours from Miri to Kuching (it was raining cat and dog weather or else the journey would be less than 13 hours), it was a fun trip and a memorable one for me who rarely travel via bus.

Well I would love to spill everything here but then again, my cute little fingers requires enough rest due to the non stop hitting the keyboard buttons therefore I need to stop here, for now.

Till then, more stories to come so just stay tuned…

I need a BREAK

2008-07-17T12:56:00.017+08:00

I am still sorting out the pictures taken from the recent rainforest world music festival and more are still coming into my mailbox. The pictures are taken from 2 digicam - I can’t imagine myself bringing a dslr camera (that has better pixels thus produce clearer photos) along with me and I guess I would have ‘panda eye’ downloading and sorting out pictures from it.

Honestly, this is my first time having finger cramped clicking on the mouse non stop for 3 hours and I’m not done with it yet. My post would be dull without any pictures, really. :(

With piles of pictures to sort and same goes with works, it makes my mind wondering wild back to the resort where I stayed during the rainforest world music festival.

# my beach sandal - a gift from Bali # my chalet block - block 9

# the forest before reaching the beach # the beach on my left

# the beach on my right

I just wish I can go back there in a split second; enjoying the panoramic scene of the beaches, the golf course scenery and most of all lying on the beach cherishing the sunset sinks to the middle of the sea and smells the fresh sea breeze.

# nice blue sky and clear sea water

I missed Santubong beach and most of all, I missed being naked at the beach. Don’t believe me?

Ask the ‘shooter’ who took my naked moment. :)

I'm back from the 11th Rainforest World Music Festival

2008-07-16T10:12:00.036+08:00

# confetti thrown in the air on the finale night

I just got back from my one week leave for the 11th Rainforest World Music Festival and today I’m busy like hell sorting out my office works. A typical working day to start with, each time coming back from long vacation.

# just look at the crowd

Not to mention I have not fully recovering from my lack of sleep and exhaustion due to the long trip back via bus. Will post about that bad experience of mine next time and now my body is giving me signals that I’m going to fall sick soon. :(

I know some of you are eager to see my review on the recent Rainforest World Music Festival but I’m sorry to disappoint you that it wouldn’t be that soon as I’m still pre-occupied with office matters plus still waiting for incoming pictures from my ‘associates’ from Sabah and also as far as from the Philippines. I even received text messages on the urge to update my blog on the rainforest thingy on my way back to Miri. Gossshhh…you guys cant really wait hahh… ;p

You know what they say – good things you’ll always have to wait. ;)

For now, do enjoy some (only some) of the taken pictures for your ‘teaser’ hehehe… ;p

# with Mr. Benedict Jimbau - the 11th RWMF's chairman

# with Tony Eusoff - a well known M'sian actor who hails from Sarawak

# with Bongkerz whom i met for the first time

# with my MGK9's boss and the 'goliaths'

# with Aaron whom signed up as STB's volunteer

# with 2 of MiriCommunity.net forum members

# with my Sabahan bloggers - Lynne, Linda, Mandy & Mel

# with my Philipino interpreter - Mariano & 2 of Heineken staffs

Lastly but not least and get ready to 'eat your heart out', peeps.

# up close and personal with Kenny Sia - Sarawak very own celebrity blogger

Will write more so stay tuned... :)

No updates till further notice

2008-07-09T08:00:00.001+08:00

Please be informed that the owner of this blog is currently away for the 11th Rainforest World Music Festival at Sarawak Cultural Village, Kuching, Sarawak therefore there is going to be no updates effective from today until the 15th of July 2008.

Any inconvenience that has caused you (my dear readers) is an un-avoidable and highly regretted.

Thank you for being my readers all this while and looking forward for your continuous support and loyalty in the near future.

I’ll be back soon so stay tuned for my return in the blogsphere.

Hugs and kisses from Mystery LadyBird.

7-A-Side Football Match

2008-07-08T09:23:00.028+08:00

It’s been a while that I didn’t get myself involved actively in sport and for the sake of sportsmanship spirit, I signed up for the 7-A-Side Football match for my team – Wallaby.

As usuall, briefing on the game rules is a must before each game starts and we started the football game playing against the Crocs team for the semi-final stage.

# briefing in progress

# pyschology war in progress

# this fella likes to chase after me - not fair bah

# support my team captain by arguing with the referee

# arguing with an opponent supporter - challenging him in person to fight in the middle of the field

# the referee - the macho side of him

# the referee - the 'soft' side of him ;p

The result – my team lost. :(

The following day, my team played against the Tasmanian Devil team.

# Wallaby group photo

# stop chasing the ball with me

# waachhaaa..don't kick the ball, let's see who kick higher

# these guys never give chance to the ladies showing their skills

# stop! let me show off you my heading style

The result – my team lost. We got 4th placing.

# even the Dean drop by for moral support

But that doesn’t dampen our sportsmanship spirit as the Wallaby team is giving way for other team to experience the moment of victory.

# peace you all

The Discovery from a 'Workshop'

2008-07-07T11:29:00.023+08:00

I was sent to attend a service development program workshop organized by the Human Resource Department recently. This is in fact my second time attending the workshop (last year it was held at EastWood Valley Golf and Country Club) which at first I refused to attend – what’s the purpose of attending the same workshop again and again right?

Until I was clearly explained on the workshop objective by the Human Resource Department’s representative (that’s because I confronted them for further explanation though), I decided to ‘give in’ and was the earliest person to turn up at Kelab Rekreasi Petroliam, Lutong. See how ‘bersemangat’ I am than the organizer, shame on you guys for coming late. ;p

# the first batch team

I’m not going to reveal what I’ve covered throughout the workshop here (unless you are willing to pay me RM1 million and TT it in my bank account now; that I will, really) but I was really glad that my ‘shout-out’ is taken seriously by the management and they are working on it now for a better change. And if one of this day, I were to leave the university, I will walked away with head up high (harap sik terusuk jak lah sebab mata ke atas bah) leaving a ‘legacy’ behind as I’ve ‘changed’ the human resource policies.

*evil laugh on the air* :)

I was having fun and motivated at the same time throughout the 2 days workshop and I believe same goes with my other colleagues. This is where we mingled and get to know each other better as all of us come from different sections. And the best thing to find out from the facilitator herself is that we the first batch had set a high par for being a very co-operative, focus, fun and creative team which in-directly had gave her motivation to deliver at her best for the next batches in the future.

# workshop in progress - i was day dreaming sitting at the back

# thinking of a strategy in 1 of the teambuilding activity

# the superstar team

# teamwork & planning is essential in this teambuilding activity

# with the most friendly male colleague in campus- he likes to smile most of the time, really

# with our facilitator whom also a lecturer

# taking a 'rest' after lunch

# i liked this shot the most bcoz of the tiles.. ;p

Although I have been spending most of my entire life in Miri, I seldom came to Kelab Rekreasi Petroliam (KRP) which was formerly known as Kelab Shell Lutong (KSL). That’s because the club are meant only for members and most of the members are Shell and Petronas employers (I’m not a member coz I signed at my own club-my house as a member in fact I’m the owner of the club). It is now known as KRP as it’s had taken over by new management – Petronas. However, the club does extend it services to interested parties that wish to use their meeting rooms or hall for any sort of functions such as parties or workshops.

# krp's swimming pool model - without the bikinis on ;p

Overall, the workshop has ‘re-freshen’ myself and I have another certificate of completion to add up in my portfolio.

# no camwhoring, no complete ok so one for the album, please. ;p

MASwings Flight Prepaid Card

2008-07-04T07:00:00.001+08:00

How many of you had purchased the first flight prepaid card launched recently by MASwings?

It was mentioned by its own Managing Director of MASwings, Mr. Amin Khan that the first prepaid flight card is value for money – no additional surcharges and airfare is 20%-30% lower than the market price.

How true it is, someone has to experience it, right?

# the front side of the flight prepaid card

I’m not going to review on its newly launched product but I’m doing a favor for my friend to sell his MASwings prepaid card worth RM90 to any interested buyer out there. He didn’t purchase it but it was given free by MASwings as he’s one of the lucky winners in one of MASwings contest and he’s willing to let it go without any additional charges.

# the back side of the flight prepaid card

The price of the flight prepaid card is what you seen printed on the card itself. So, hurry hurry peeps…

# read the instructions carefully please

Please be informed that the flight prepaid card has a validity period (valid for 3 months) and as of this month, the prepaid card still has 1 month and a half to go before it get expires. This flight prepaid card is for one route only and I was told that it will 'fly' you from Miri to Mulu/Bario or vice versa.

Wait a minute! Your trip wouldn’t be memorable if you can go for 1 route only, right?

Well, good news!! I have 2 flight prepaid cards in hands and it’s going to cost you RM180 for a return trip to those mentioned routes (exclude excess baggage lah).

p/s – If you are keen to purchase this, you may email or text me (applicable to those who had my contact) and it valid until the 8th July (as I’ll be away for the 11th Rainforest World Music Festival).

Bola Kaki Tiga aka '3 Legged Ball'

2008-07-03T14:37:00.042+08:00

We had our first Malaysian traditional games in conjunction with the university sports month at our newly built football field on last Wednesday. The traditional game starts with what is known as the Bola Kaki Tiga.

I used to play this game during my childhood and it was formerly known as ‘main selipar jepun’.

It’s a pity that I can’t participate in the game as I have some errands to attend to but I never fail to sign up as a supporter to earn 1 point for the team.

# with the CRC committee team at the registration table

My team – Wallaby versus team Crocs for the semi-final stage and below are some pictures of my team (taken by Mr. Fly) with their own stories.

# most of my team mates are big size and had big assets ;p

# that's how you throw the ball

# run as fast as you can

# teamwork is essential

# this is how it should stand - inside the piramid line

# our secret strategy - to defend it with your body ;p

# some of the crowd

With that kind of agresive actions from my team mates, my team Wallaby beaten the Crocs team ‘badly’ in the semi-final stage. Yeahhh… :)

Yesterday was the final stage of the game where my team – Wallaby versus team Tasmanian Devil. Go through the pictures for stories.

# the team captain eye contact

# the team captain war

# the 'kom peng' session

# looking for the right angle

# team players defending their territory

# my exhausted team captain

# yeahh we win!

Final result – my team Wallaby was officially announced as the champion for Bola Kaki Tiga game. Woohooo…

# we are the champion - the Wallaby!!

Tomorrow, I’ll be in my sport attire and with a very high sportsmanship spirit for the 7-A-Side-Football match. Watch out team Crocs coz you’re gonna going down and hiding deep down in the campus lake. ;p

Kick off with Jog-A-Thon

2008-07-03T07:54:00.039+08:00

Month of July is the sports month for my university and I’m feeling disappointed about it simply because I can’t participate in all of the organized games, I wish I can. That’s because most of the games are held during my presence in the upcoming 11th Rainforest World Music Festival at Kuching.

So, I decided to compensate my disappointment by turning up in any of the organized games (while I’m still here before I go off for the RWMF) as the team supporter. In this way, I indirectly have collected 1 point for the team. Smart strategy right?… :)

I started the university’s sport month by signing up as the jog-a-thon event as the team supporter, at the same time I can capture every moment of it in pictures together with my ‘partner in crime’ – Mr. Fly- our very own in-house graphic designer. And the pictures that you are about to see are contributions from both of us which most of it are from Mr. Fly himself (he had a dslr gadget ok and mine was like so way out from his). ;p

So here you go - photos with some accompanying stories…

#Each team requires to sign up their participation including the supporters

#My team captain #Warming up is a compulsory for any physical activity including making love ;p

# Starting point #Run Forest runnn...

#Even the whole family joined the jog-a-thon

#On my way to the half check point

#The waiting team at the half check point - Curtin Village

#Caught day dreaming ;p

#I've made it!! Aku menang!!

#I've made it too - on a scooter ride though.

#The Wallaby, Crocs & Wombat die hard supporters

#With my office team members

#Caught 'shooting' for the second time
#The Jog-A-Thon Overall Result Board

#The result breakdown

At the end of the event, we had our breakfast at the lecture theather foyer.

#Go and get yourself - i'm not sharing with you.

#It wouldn't be complete without camwhoring ;p

Simple Cream Cheese Cake

2008-07-01T14:28:00.020+08:00

Last week end after I’ve done with my house chores, I decided to reward myself with a cheese cake. I went to the nearest supermarket and bought the ingredients that I needed.

Here are the ingredients;
1 Philadelphia cream cheese
1 Nestle cream
Condensed milk
Cheese biscuits

It is a very simple cake to make and I would love to share the recipe with my readers (kind of a way rewarding my blog gentle readers).

Step 1
Leave your cream cheese melt under room temperature. Step 2
Pour required amount of cream and condensed milk (based on your preferences).
Step 3
Mix it thoroughly.
Step 4
Dip the cheese biscuits into the well mixtures. Step 5
Layered it nicely on your cake tray (here I’m using in a Pyrex plate).
Step 6
Spread the cream cheese on the layered cheese biscuits.
Step 7
Repeat Step 3, 4, 5 & 6 until you’ve reach certain stage where you find you need to stop.

Step 8
Once done, leave it to chill in your refrigerator.
Note: If you still have some mixtures left, you may pour it over the cake. Don’t waste. :)

Tips
- You may use low fat cream or low fat fresh milk if you are a health freak.
- You may also use cedar cheese instead of cream cheese if you like to have the saltiness’ taste in your cheese cake.
- You may also use other types of biscuits based on your likings.

I hope you enjoyed doing and eating it as much as I did.

Good luck guys...

Avolution

2008-06-30T15:37:00.007+08:00

My colleague just got back from Jakarta (the trip that I withdrawn due to in-secure reasons) and handed over to me the long waited ‘appetizer’.

*wink wink*

So to my Indonesian gentle blog readers out there, should one of this day you plan to pay me a courtesy visit, do bring along ‘my appetizer’ with you.

Try to Guess

2008-06-29T08:00:00.000+08:00

What you are about to see in my next post is very common among the Sarawakians.

Anybody can guess on what I’m going to blog next??

Here are some clues for you.

What does a hen has to do with this post?

Local exotic ayam pansoh

Local traditional titbits for offering

'Ranyai' tree

I'll be glad to post a full review on this if I have a minimum of 20 comments under this post therefore kindly leave your guess without any hesitation should you are eager to read the full story.

Thank you. :)

11th RWMF Briefing Session - ammended

2008-06-28T08:00:00.002+08:00

To those who have signed up as volunteer for the 11th Rainforest World Music Festival with me, please be informed a briefing session has been arranged as follows;

Date: 28th June 2008

Time: 7.30pm

Venue: Bulatan Cafe

Do spread the word around and see you all there ya... :)

Together in Work & Play

2008-06-27T08:00:00.000+08:00

It’s CRUNCH TIME! and July is going to be our university sports month and the theme for this year’s - Curtin Sports & Family Day 2008 is “Together in Work & Play”.

We will kick-off with a JOG-A-THON this Saturday, 28 June 2008 followed various sporting event through out the month of July. The JOG-A-THON route will cover a 6km route from the Harry Perkins Lecture Theatre Foyer to Curtin Village (mid-point) and return.

On the first week of July, the committee will be organizing preliminary 7-A-Side mini soccer, volleyball, badminton, table tennis and with the addition of Dodgeball and traditional Malaysian games such as "Bola Kaki Tiga", Galah Panjang and Coconut Bowling.

I may have to skip some of the matches held during the second and third week of July as I’ll be away to Kuching for the 10th Rainforest World Music Festival. :)

To mark the closing of the sports month, the committee will be organizing a Family Day event on Saturday, 26 July 2008 at the Kelab Rekreasi Petroleum Lutong. The family day will host various telematch games for staff and their families.

This year staff will be grouped under 4 teams named after Australian animals - Tasmanian Devil, Wombat, Wallaby and Crocodile. I’m with the Wallaby group. ;)

Together we will work and play in true spirit of sportsmanship, fairplay, friendship and peace.

Coffee Money aka Duit Kopi

2008-06-26T08:00:00.000+08:00

I received this via forwarded email and it is such a waste if it doesn't share among my gentle readers.

"Dear Friends,

If you have ever paid or are thinking of paying 'Coffee Money' when stopped for traffic or other offences, DON'T EVER DO this again. The traffic department (JPJ) has recently started a campaign to be rid of corruption.

Every officer on duty will be rewarded with RM100.00 if they report each case of bribery to the department. This is how they do (trick you into) it. They will note down the details of your IC/MyKad, and ask you how you want to settle - 'Macam mana nak selesai?'

If you indicate yes or even offer to give them any money, they will report the incident by rejecting your 'KOPI MONEY' and get the RM100.00 instead as an incentive for their integrity and 'HONEST' publicity. This means that you will end up having a summon issued to you and perhaps a charge for bribery.

SO DON'T PAY DUIT KOPI AGAIN, especially if you hope to go free with a lesser amount of money compared to the fine. Even if you want to pay over RM200, the JPJ Officers would rather have a 'good' name than to take your kopi money.

Just beware of their trick because the cops are now accumulating 'cookies' points for their promotion and pay increment - with your help if possible. They should have done this to stop corruption long time ago... but anyway it's better late than never, right?

SPREAD THIS MESSAGE AROUND TO EDUCATE OTHERS ON THIS NEW ANTI-RASUAH POLICY AND DON'T YOU DARE TO CORRUPT ANY JPJ OR EVEN POLICE OFFICERS AGAIN!"

So there you go. Yes, you might have many speculations in mind after reading this especially on the genuinity of it, therefore should there are any of my readers happen to be a JPJ officer, police officer or family members related (close or distance) to the JPJs or the police force do come forward and leave your comment behind.

My says on this - whether it's true or not I never like the idea of bribing the authorities. They are being paid to perform their tasks and why on earth you or me want to give additional income to them whereas we ourselves don't have enough even to save in our own bank account.

Baby Cobra

2008-06-25T07:00:00.000+08:00

This baby cobra is for real. Surprisingly, it gave a nice posing for the 'shooter'.

The baby cobra was found 'lost' not on the ground, not in the garden, not in the bushes but in one of the lecturer room and lucky him for not being 'kissed' by a cobra.

It was caught and 'kept on display' in a drinking bottle for a while which later released for freedom at the campus garden.

I am so pissed with my own government!!

2008-06-24T13:20:00.010+08:00

Today, I am feeling so sad, at the same time feeling so pissed too. Enough is enough and I'm going to burst it out here.

All this while, I felt myself has been discriminated despite of being a Malaysian. To whom is known as a peaceful and harmony country (to the world’s eye) as we Malaysian are consists of various ethnic races. But the reality shows otherwise as I grow older, the so called peaceful and harmony had left ‘bruises’ all over my body.

And with the recent issue on the fuel hike and seeing how the government dwells with the issues, had increased the level of rebellious in me. As a matter of fact I believe it goes the same with others who are in the same standing as me.

Carrying a Chinese surname in Malaysia guarantees you too many discrimination especially when it comes to education part (I’m one of the victim). Yes, the Chinese and the Indians were ‘invited’ to (once upon a time) known as Malaya or the Borneo Islands and the government justification by implementing such system to protect the native were right at the time.

Years passed by and a new generation of mixed marriage from different races starts to populate the land of Malaysia and therefore these are the new ‘breed’ of population who had contributed to the country developments.

However, the system remains unchanged until now. It has destroyed, it has tarnished the Chinese and the Indians to pursue their studies locally which resulting only ‘can afford’ families sent their children overseas. To those who ‘can’t really afford’ families, apart from withdraw whatever saving they had; they even mortgage their properties or lands (if there are any) just for the sake of their children future. And to those who ‘can’t afford at all’ would just bear with it as life has to move on.

How pathetic it was but being a loyal citizen of Malaysia, the government still had their support from these discriminated groups.

I sometimes wonder why on earth do I been issue with a Malaysia identity card (now it is known with a glamour name to it as MyKad) yet I still feel discriminated in many ways and I just feel like leaving this country to start a new life somewhere else. I guess that also explains why most of Chinese and Indian Malaysian who had studied overseas doesn’t want to come back to serve the country.

This is just one of many issues exists among the Chinese and Indian community and believe me even the ethnic races also felt the ‘pinch’ with the current government. However, nothing compares to the ‘blow’ on the Chinese and the Indian community.

Perhaps the government is waiting for another May 13 incident to happen again, are you?? Well, if it does happen, say bye-bye to the old way of ‘educating’ the citizen, trust me. I’m looking forward to a real secular practice to be implemented unlike the ‘secular practice’ that the government is practicing now.

Now, in relation to the story of fuel hike, I felt being cheated by my own government. Is this the return of my loyalty to the government by voting for them?? Enough said of what I’ve heard, read and seen from the media electronic on this matter, it really shows how I as a humble Malaysian citizen being treated as ‘a stupid fool’ to their eye.

To my gentle loyal and silent readers all around the world, this is the reality of the fuel hike story in Malaysia. Do spare your time to really understand on what is going on then it’s up to you to come up with your own judgments.

Miri maybe just a small town (although it has gained its city status few years back) to the eye of the government but who is the government without the support from Mirians?? Though reality hurts (where the ‘minority’ are always left behind), it doesn’t stop neither does it dampen the spirit to fight and when Mirians fight back, we fight the right way – with dignity.

And with that my fellow blogger – Uchu Keling voices out on his standing to the government. Has it reached out to the respective people concern, has any action plan been layout in respond to it, or has it been permanently ‘deleted’ from their system…only time will tell.

Me on the other hand has given up all hopes and dreams for Malaysia. To hell with any speculations wondering in your mind now on my standing, only time will tell and one of this day, Malaysia will know.

Just bear in mind - without me, you are nobody and never under-estimate the power within the freedom of speech.

Mark my word.